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2007-08-23T14:07:00.000-07:00

I HAVE CREATED A NEW BLOG. PERSONAL BLOG. SORRY! :) DONT WORRY. SOMETIMES WILL BLOG HERE.

2007-08-22T23:42:00.000-07:00

AHHHH! Help! I've lost the motivation for study! Anyoneeee. Please please pleaseeeeeeeeeeee. Im fucking irritated. Mind my language but i'm seriously pissed off with exams and school life. Have been trying to study for the past few hours but not a single shit goes in my head. Brain's not workin.

Too many stuffs on my mind and i'm tired. I ate chocolates, ate a big packet of rice. 2 chicken wings, bread, and a can of bird's nest for my dinner. I can't be bothered with my throat anymore. =) I ate like a hungry gh*st. Oops. SHHH.

I know it all. =) But i'm still getting on with my life. Like the saying goes, if old want dont go, new one how to come? Haha. Oh wells. Time has it all. I have time. I wish i wish i wish. Sometimes, i feel it's sad. Why such things happen when i'm serious in a relationship. It's so unfair. And the next time round it's a different story. It's either i lose feelings first or the other party loses his first.

Why can't my relationship be a normal one. I lovehim, he love me. Last long. WHYYYYY!?!? unfair. Oh yah. I watched hi 5 today and guess what? Kathleen not in the group anymore. Got 1 girl called SUN replace her. Asshole. I'm not going to watch hi 5 anymore. =( Anyway my msn cant be used cause of some troubleshooting thing. So angry. It's adding "fuel" to my "flames". Okay nevermind. Restarting com right now. At this moment. Yes. =\

2007-08-22T11:12:00.000-07:00

I guess , time to move on. Cause he moved on already. Oh well. Gonna change my blog address for the moment. With effect from 27 aug. =)

Goodbye love.

2007-08-22T00:36:00.000-07:00

Went to see the doctor after all. And guess what. I was asked to go for further checkup. Dunno what possible throat cancer?!?! What bullshit. Just because my throat is fucking swollen doesnt mean i have cancer okay. Bloody hell. I'm not going for any shit checkup lah.

Anyway im very angry. Because...... I tell myself i will not give up. But i dont know when i can tell myself that until. Im very sick and tired le. No more nonsence. For now. I'll juz wait and see. Im going to face the harsh reality. Cause i have to. Goodbye ______. Goodbye _______.

I have gotten my retribution. Until now. It's killing me. ARGHHHHH!!! I wanna scream so loudly. but. Everyone sleeping. HA.

2007-08-21T19:29:00.000-07:00

Officially i've broken up with low jiahao. Ytd i wasnt so sure cause he smsed me again in the afternoon Today. He thought we were still together. So i thought, maybe try a few more days and see how. But i realised i shouldnt drag it. I am fully aware of my feelings for him. Its fading. He knows it too. So during cmsy revision class i smsed him and told him that my feelings fade already. Then he asked me why.

In the end i told him i wanted a break up. He got angry. Maybe disappointed. I dont know but i feel like i busted him. Then i smsed him and told him nt to reply and stuffs. Juvone dear also told me to leave this kind of people. Yes i agree. He's so useless. Ok mind my words but its true. Im not happy being with him. He's nt like a gentleman at all. He dont send me home, i have to send him to his busstop. And then he only cares about himself. What kind of bf is this? Even though its very late at night but i have to walk home all by myself. Through the empty and isolated path. Whenever i tell him stuffs, he just dont want to bother. He either says: aiyah nvm lah or huh den how?

When i tell him about my collegues. Always kena bully, he never even try to cheer me up. Only noe how to sae dun care dem la dun care dem la. So you see the reason why i wanted to end this relationship. I couldnt take it any more. Furthermore. Its not him whom i love. It has always been infatuation. Lasted only for a few days.

After which he smsed me again and said: I'm sorry. Can we dont break?
So i said: Whats de point of continuing a relationship when no feelings are involved?
He said: Issit you fall in love with another guy?

The rest. Juvone knows abt it lah. I did sms and told him the truth though. After cmsy we girls went to lab and print stuffs. They ah, very bad. Say i very fast find another bf! Nan sae 1 week? Then juvone say tonight?!?! And den the rest i forgot hu sae wat. Got 4 days lah .. LOL. wei wei wei. Girls ah, im not that.... HAHA.

In lab i told them about my feelings lor. They said someone else better will replace HIM(not jiahao for goodness sake). But i told dem i dunwan! ='( Very sad lah. But... I shant get emo. =) Live life to the fullest.

If only..

2007-08-21T11:22:00.000-07:00

I woke up and realised that my throat os KILLING me, I cant even open my mouth. Hurts like damn badly. I tink im gonna have a hard time eating. So yeah anyway i'm damn disappointed. Yes, there is a reason but it's a lil personal.

I had a horrible nightmare. Him him and him. He found a new girl and her name was MyName. LOL. I noe a little lame. Then saw him in the bus and was playing with his sister? LOL. Dunno why out of the blue he got a younger sister. So yeah. Then he left and someone else told me he was alrdy interested in another girl.

I know its all juz part of my "positive" thinking. I want to give up. But i cant.

One sided love.

2007-08-20T19:10:00.000-07:00

Today early in the morning jiahao came to find me. So yea. Slack till 6 den he went home. I got so scared today. Cause. Why ah? Why guys all like to lie one. Whyyyyyyyyyyy?!?! Anyway i tink its the end for us. So like.. Yah. I got angry with him at a point of time when... So ididnt care him and went to slp. He slept too. Then sherrie came back and he call me wake up. Then she cook and den we eat. And then i send him to bus stop. And so bye bye. MAybe it will be the last tim eim seeing him i also dunno.

Its a good thing i didnt give in at all. Bye jiahao. Im sorry. 16 days with you. I hope i get my friends back. Now that you're gone.

2007-08-19T22:31:00.000-07:00

Freaking tired. Exhausted. Im sick. High fever, sore throat and flu. Im supposed to be happy my bf's coming to see me for the whole entire day. But I'm not. Why why whyyyy? I feel like a fucking bitch. He knows i dont love him. Yet he still wants to be with me. Argh. Its like, he call or dun call me , sms or dun sms me, i also wun go and bother one.

Faded. Maybe this is the word to describe my feelings. Yes. Im certain of it. Im like wearing 2 layers of clothes, including my jacket. Shorts, and another layer of track pants. Freezing cold. Anyway. Im tired so cant blog. Next week is study week so whole week no sch. Also took exam leave so no work. Shiok. Nites people. Im tired.

2007-08-19T00:03:00.000-07:00

Yesterday he called me. Talked very nicely at first. But dont know why out of the blue quarrel again. Sigh. He cried. I didnt know what to do. Im sorry dar. I know, like you said, im not a good girlfriend. I treat you so differently all of a sudden. MAybe because i know, deep down inside, I dont love you. You know that too right. I try so hard, to treat u nicer. But it always turn out differently in the end.

I want to love you. But it seems that something else is stopping me. Something. Someone. Yes, i cant let go of the past. Its true. I know its very unfair for you. Im sorry dar. Please dont shed any more tears. Although i cant promise not to treat u this way again, but i promise, i'll try my best to maintain this relationship. Cause i know whats gone, is gone. He might already have someone new. I dont know.

You tell me you want to last long. I tell you i cant. The way we're going now.. Sigh. All i can sae now is im sorry. This post might a bit random but i've been thinking for such a long time. It's too unfair for you. Now, we'll just live one day to another. Seee what happens k?

Anyway, im gonna say goodbye to my ah lian hair colour. And my ah lian image. Black hair is back. =) Now, noone will call me an ah lian!! whoohooo!!~~~~~~~~

2007-08-17T21:16:00.000-07:00

Im so freaking exhausted. Today went to school only for ONE lesson which is cmaths. Actually by right supoosed to have cmsy tutorial at 4. But me and shu juan decided to shop and not go. HAHA. She went to meet her bf. Today after cmaths we all went to decide on where to go then decided to go tamp first. Then yeah. Waited at bus stop for dian to come. Then when the bus finally arrived, juvone n sharina didnt board. We girls all so shocked. Not to mentioned a little pissed and angry. I mean, why so last min? Oh wells nevermind. Past already.

Then at tamp go eat. Then after that proceeded to suntec. HAHA. Wanted to buy donuts but the queue like freaking long ah. Today quarrel with him again. He shouted so loud at me. So i got pissed and shouted in the shopping centre. Ha. I mean, he's so unreasonable lah. Still dare to accuse me. So hot tempered. Argh. Now i really dunno le la. Always quarrel. We barely even started. Just 13 days. Because of mr low jiahao, i lost so many friends. They dont even bother to tok to me. Why? Sometimes i tink that i really made the wrong choice. What can i do? Im so lost so sad.

I still miss him. As in him. But. I guess it gone for good. Anyway let me continue. We went suntec and i go find hashima and deyuan at shop. AHah. Then walk wlak lor. Then kip on buying stuffs to eat. I spend so much lor. Die ah die. Fat also. HAHA. Then after that decided to shop for girl stuffs. HAHA. You noe what i mean. Me and shu juan bought a set. HAHAHAH. Oh my god i cant believe im saying this la.

Then the rest left for cmsy. So we continued to shop. Went to body shop and testing the eye shadow. But didnt buy in the end. Then took mrt home. She go her bf hse. I go home. Reach home le i str8 away slp. So tired lor. Then woke up and eat. Then received a call from shixian. Like so sudden. And he's such a bastard. Im serious. Argh. I really dunno wat he tinking lor. I cant say it out cause to personal. So yeah, I hate my life right now. If only time could be reversed.

2007-08-16T22:25:00.000-07:00

Dar came to find me at amk. I reached earlier den him so i went home 1st. Then help mummy hang the clothes cause she's really sick. Then after a while dar sae he dwnstairs le. So i hurry pack and went off. Then we went to walk walk walk damn fucking sian. But nevermind lah. Time pass very very fast lor.

Then i told dar sth and he got very angry and pissed. I know his impression of me already changed, although he said it hasnt. Sigh. He got angry with me when i said sth off the limit and straightaway he let go of my hand. Im sorry. We didnt get to eat cause both of us no appetite. Went to the same old place to talk and slack.

I realised.. It's all infatuation. I dont know. My girls know. What im thinking right now. Heartpain. Its just too hard to let go. Sorry mr low jiahao. Give me some time. I'll try my very best to be your good gf. Try.

2007-08-16T14:08:00.000-07:00

Went to school as usual today. Woke up at 7. Then prepare le den go out. Then in sch vislit. So slack. Just do the journal only lor. So lame. Hahaha. Then after that go out with my girls to eat. Outside school Then talk talk talk. Hmm. The girls know my secret. Sigh. Being in a relationship really very hard. Esp now, in my plight. My girls know how i feel. Gave me some advices.

But yeah. Just have to live with it. So heartpain lor sometimes. HmMM. Now in sch lab. Go discuss project. Later my dar maybe come find me. Not sure. Then go liliang chalet.

2007-08-15T23:03:00.000-07:00

Today woke up at 9. Check whether mummy got go work. And YES she did. So i sms dar sae mummy go work. Then went back to slp. Around 9.50 he sms me sae he go home bathe everything le den come find me. I slept till 12 like that and was wondering why that boy nv msg me so i went to bathe le den after that call him. Ohh and he was already on the train. So i went to change and after that call him to tell him how 2 come my hse.

Then teaach teach teach until want die. Mr low jiahao so blur. HAHA. Then after thast finally he reached. =) So i went to open the door for him. And then i go make up. Suddenly, i heard the door open. :O It was my irritating sister. HAHA. she came back from camp. 3 day nv see her got PEACE. But when she come back, she keep on telling me storiesssssss. ARGGG. My dar wait inside my room for me. HAHA. Blow fan. That lazy boy. =) Then after i prepare le we went off. Go library return my books which i already date due so long. HAHA. Then walk like siao we both sweat lor. ahah.

After return le we went bus stop wait for bus 162. Then this uncle i tink he cheater la sae he no $$ take bus. Sae wan go tampines. He ownself got $5 den still sae nt enough. Asshole one lei. Then my dar so hao xin give him $. Wwah. So easy kena bluff lor. Dar darr. You too good alrdy la. Then we tk bus sit very long den reach fareast. While on the bus got these 2 baby. So cute la. We sit behind dem and play play play. HAHA. Then i sae i want sleep. That boy ah, dun let me slp! Sit until backside damn pain. Cause journey so long. After reach le went to LP. Go see my roster.

Then go cineleisure buy tickets. Watched 881. So after buy le we went to eat! Then eat le go walk walk and slack till 5.20 lor. Then inside the cinema sooooo small. HAHA. Squeeze like siao. Then .... Hahah. the movie wasnt so bad la. got people cry until very jialat i dunno y. I see le oso dun feel like crying at all. haha. Today got people approach my dar wor. The creative talent thing. AHAH. Wah that boy oso ppl wan ah? LOL. :X Then go walk walk.

After movie we went to tk bus to amk. Then collect my contact lens. Then slack. Walk walk walk. Slacked at SOMEWHERE. So hot lor. Then very scary. The place damn ulu den can hear very weird noises like people calling. I was damn fucking scared la i grab his arms like siao. Then walk damn damn damn fast. By the time we found seat alrdy sweating like mad. HAHA. Then... Yah. Slack lor. =))) Dar so cute. Esp when he paiseh dun dare face me. LOL. now i noe dar is a naughty naughty boy. TODAY. HAHA. Caught red handed. =P

Then after that jiu go home le. Then eat. And now i haven bathe.. So i am going to bathe le my sister want use com. That irriattin girl! I miss my boyfriend already. =( I must call him! BYEEEE!

2007-08-14T23:35:00.000-07:00

Finally , the day is gonna end. Todat go sch early and do java. Keith very nice lor. Help me with my project. Haha. Then do finish le so happy. Then got java test. Die. I got so many errors.

Today go follow mummy go see doctor. She sick tmr... And u noe wat it means. My dar cannot come my hse find me le!!!!!!Sigh. Sad. So maybe gg his hse find him. ahhhh. tmr dar calling mi after his prac to wake mi up. faster go find him. ahh.. if mummy nvr go work den he conme lorrr. whoooooooooo.

i toking to him. so blog tmr. ggoing to town. =) wait for my story ah. hahah

2007-08-13T22:52:00.000-07:00

Today got presentaion. Damn shag. HAHAHAHA. Lame. Anyway toking to my dar on fone now. So no concentration. I realli cant wait for wed. My dar coming to meet me. Then next week whole week no sch. I everyday meet dar. He come find me. Work oso tk one week off. =) I miss him!

2007-08-13T01:12:00.000-07:00

Today worked full shift. Fucking tired. Then morning so slack. Then after that that asshole changlin keep on disturb me. Asshole. Really. Then break oso go with that fucker. So suay. He in store keep ask me off light and tap him to slp. So irritating. Still dare sae i owe him a goodbye kiss. Wtf. I very faithful to my mr low one hor. =)

Anyway today i gotta go homee arly caus emummy call me reach home by 11. Go pray. But.. Sth happened. Today cat want go home early and she told rany she wan sign out at 7. But rany dun allow her den still scold her until she cry. Wa make me so scared. I dun dare tell him i wan go home early liao lor. Then after that she go home le i go break with pat. Then tok tok. AHHA. Then smoke and tok smoke n tok. Today i smoke 10 sticks. Morning buy den at night finish le.

That changlin is a fucking asshole. He go open my bag take my stuffs w/o my permission lor. He tink i dunno. Bloody asshole. No privacy lor. Really so angry. In the end work work work den at 10 i ask rany to let me sign off then took bus. Got 2 guys sitting behind me make me damn fucking irritated.. They damn noisy den kip on kicking the chair. So irritated.

Come home den go dwn pray den started raining. Like..... Ahhh. Then after that come back bathe and call my dar. Tok for about an hour or so. Ytd i slept at 3 cause was toking to him for 2 hours. I miss him la. I cant wait to see him on wed. I miss my mr low jiahao! tmr gt presentation. damn sian.

2 more days to meeting my dar.

2007-08-12T00:19:00.000-07:00

Went to work. Morning received sms from dar. Sy he wake up le. Then he pei me chat till i reach my workplace. Then i reach le still early so i called him. Hmm. Then go sign in le. Todat gt relieve staff. His name is Deyuan. Haha. I didnt tok to him cause i shy. Then during break, he same break as me den come in store with me and tok to me lor. Then actually want study de but keep on talking. So yahh. HAHA.

Then today guess who came to see me.. SHU JUAN! Thatttts righhhht. HAHA. I serving customers den she come in frm behind n poke my side. Wahh. Give me a shock. AHA. Then today reaalli a damn tiring day. Dunno why. I can close my eyes and work one. Rany today super hyper. Haha. Make me laugh non stop lor. So rare. Keep on dancing.

Then in the end all the morning shift ppl left. So left me, alex, dom and deyuan. Shiok ah . SUPER slack. Hahaha. Then deyuan tok alot le. Cause i keep on tokin to him. =) Then serve n serve lor. Actually thought dar wun sms me. Expected that la. But when closing that time, I receieved 2 smses from him! So damn ahappy la. He said he missed me. Wahh. I hope time passes fast fast la. I cannot wait already. =(

Afetr work, i sms dar and said i missed him too. Then he sae he go home and call me. So right now, im waiting for his callllll. And i tink im gonna slp soon cause tmr workign full shift. Idiot la. I tired liao. HAHA. Byeeeeeeeee.

3 more days before i can see Mr Jiahao.

2007-08-10T00:39:00.000-07:00

I just hanged the fone with my wonderful boyfriend. Talk for an hour plus. =) Today really is damn suay day. I didnt UPLOAD my fucking WDS on time. I tot i could. But everything screwed up. In the end took a few hours to solve the problem. From 1o do until 8 lor. Wtf. Mon still got presentation. Sorry dar. Today call u show temper. =( Cause really very very very pissed off mah. Then so sad lor. Whole day miss my dear. Sad sad, wed den can see him. He's coming all the way to my hse pick me. So sweeeeeet.

I cant wait laaaaaa. I want seeeeeeee himmmmm. HAHA. Anyway got fucking work tmr. afternoon shift. Stupid changlin call me when i tokin to my dear juz nw. Spoiler. HAHA. I tink miting him tmr? Sian. dun feel like meeting. Super siann. He always late one lor. Anyway back to my wds thing. I damn pekchek. Then juvone they all trying to help. Then gt to noe this guy keith, which is juvone fren. He help me. At last can lor. I so happy. Then took bus home. Call my dar and tok to him awhile. Then in the bus fell asleep. Tpt called me. Tok tok. Aiyo dstrb my slp. I so tired. Reach home le. 1st thing is to call him. Tell him i reach home le. Then he ask me why so long bla bla bla. That loso king.

I go bathe everythingden called him. Tok la. I told him i want my bao bao. HAHA. Ahhh, Im so tiredddddddd. Oh yeah, caixiong finally expressed his feelings. But too bad, Im attached to my jiahao le! I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee him. Im happy today cause i heard what he really wants in this relationship. Im looking forward to it too. =))

2007-08-09T22:47:00.000-07:00

I receieved quite a few smses yesterday while i was sleeping. But a pity one of the smses wasnt for me. I tink send wrong. Ha. Anyway. Let me talk about today. Im so happy. =)

Went to work in the morning. Worked half morning shift. Then dom sms me while i was in the train. I tink he lonely. Haha. Then ask me faster come. Then i reached le den tok cock with him. Opened shop. Super slack. Haha. Then i keep pestering him to let me off at 1.30, latest 2 cause meeting my dar. Then after that, at 145 like that dar come inside shop find me. But i haven finish work. But i was shocked when i see all his friends outside. Got about 6. And got 1 girl oso. So i told cat then she say dun go out with them lor since i so unfortable. Dom very nice, 2 .10 let me off. Then i go sign out with Cat. Then dar and his company all outside. I dundare walk over to them. So i call him sae i go pei cat eat. Then they went off play pool 1st. After eat le i call him then go down plaza sing find him.

I bully my dear. :x Then he wait for me at bus stop then walk very far! To the pool place. Then at there i not so paiseh le. Cause my dar so nice keep on pei me. Then after that i was comfortable le. Then we went to eat and i follow dar go draw $ and walk walk walk.. Go plaza sing with his friends then they play games. I so lazy so i keep on lie down on him. Haha. Then sit on his leg. While watching his frens play. Then after that we all go carpark smoke then walk walk den go suntec.

Actually wan watch fireworks but the place so crowded. Then there also so hot. My wonderful bf so nice. He keep on" My dear thirsty huh? Hot hot huh? Sayang lai. Later i buy water for u ok?" Then i keep on give the not happy face. Like wan to die liddat. Ha. Im so spoilt. Lucky got him to spoil me. :x Then in the end we bth so me n dar left 1st. Go walk walk at raffles. Then slack. Then after that go back amk. Still walk walk. Then in the end sit at amk central smoke n tok. Until 9 plus. Haha. Now i finally realised he's nt wat i tot of him. He explained everything to me le. =) Im so happy.

After that i wan pei him go tk bus. But he keep on dunwan dunwan. But i dun care! =) So pei him le den went off. Hmm. I meeting him on wed go watch movieeee. Happpyyy! =) I miss him already. Just an hour. Haiyo.

Finally, i learn to let go of the past. Its time to start anew. With him.

2007-08-07T22:22:00.000-07:00

Finally, today i talked to mr jiahao on the fone for half an hour? HAHA. That boy is coming down to my workplace on thurs. I finish work at 1.30. So after that we going out! =)) Hmm. Let me start from the start of my day.

Yesterday did my projects till like siao. Then got irritated. Was talking to a few ppl online. Haha. Anyway, spencer ah, dun keep playing your dota lah. Go get some sleep please. Wait you talk like want to fight like that. Aiyo. Ahh, he tink he's superman. =/

Ok let me continue. Then did projects but didnt do much cause was all the way online. Chatting with people. HAha. Then jiahao and caixiong keep on ask me go slp go slp go slp. I wanted to lah but had to do at least sth mah. So did ALITTLEBIT. and trust me, my little is really little. HAHA. Then went off to slp!

Morning went to school early. Go do project but didnt really did much either. Wwas a waste of time. When it was time to go for prsp lecture, we all suddenly felt hungry so we decided to eat instead of going lecture. HAHA. I SAW JOJO!!! WHOOO. JOJOJOJOJOJOJOJOJOJO~ My heart beat super fast i dont know why. But he waved at me so i waved back. HA. =X

Then eat le we went to lab to continue on our stuffs lor. After that go prsp lab. Caixiong say he want fetch me home AGAIN. Then i was like dunwan lah. Then he sae he wait for me after sch. His class finish at 4 while mine at 5. So he waited for about 1 hr and 10 mins for me. Hmm. Still say he need to go amk lor. I tink he liar liar de. HAHA. So after lab i went to IT carpark to meet up with him. Then we took his bike. Wah, today the wind so strong. Then my hair keep slapping my face. Super pain.

Then we reach in about 20 mins. Slack under my hse here. Tok until about 7. Talk abt his tattoos. He super crazy lah. Put so much. Then he sae he regret so ask mi dun put. Wait i regret also. =( Then i went home. Called jiahao. =) Pei him tok tok. He so funny lor. He say: Today got go home with boy huh? Better dun ah wait i come catch you. Dun let me catch hor. .... Bla bla bla.

After that mummy came home so i hang the fone. While she bathing i go call him again. Sad sad. he wan slap my face. HAHA. =P Anyway im miting him on thurs! But he sae he wun let me go home at 10!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dun care. Im gonna bite him. Until he cry ah. =)) ANYWAY im off to do my projects le.

2007-08-06T21:21:00.000-07:00

HAHA. My laopo say my blog like life story. Every single detail also blog. =p Anyway yeah. I should cut down on my blogging. Dont tell grandma story le. =) Anyway, today went to sch. Caixiong actually want fetch me but in the end he couldnt make it. So i went to school myself.

Then yeah, i reach school den go lecture and all. Break 2 hrs so we girls went out to eat. After that went for lessons. After that caixiong sae he waiting for me at library. Then i go meet him and stuffs. Anyway thx dian, juvone and the people who helped me in my wds today. I love u all. =) HAHA. Then after meet mr bear then we go his bike there and took 15 mins to discuss where to go. Then at last decided to go bishan. Hmmm. Then at there slack lor. Eat ice cream. Then he keep on laugh at me, Cause i eat until whole mouth. So embarassing. I used the whole tissue . Then at there tok tok. Sms mr jiahao. =)

Then at 8 o clock lidday we left. Took his bike he want go pump petrol. Ha so funny. Shhhh. I know you know. caixiong. =))) Then after that he fetch me homeeee. Again. So sweet. AHHAAH. Ok watever. Then i reach home mummy all nt at home. Hmmm.

Sometimes, for instance, now. I feel like a total bitch. I swear. I'm sorry ______, I'm sorry ________, I'm sorry _______. ahh, oh well.

p.s. Jiahao made me kind of pissed off today. He liar liar pants on fire. I really dont know what he thinking. Then he still dare sae i fierce. Hmph. After that ask me tok back sweet sweet. Thick skin. Make me angry still ..... Haha. Anyway things are going well. =) W.y.b.b. W.y.q.q. W.y.n !!!!

2007-08-06T01:13:00.000-07:00

Fuck projects. Fuck this klement guy. Fuck sch. Fuck fuck fuck.

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So fierce for wat..?
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then dont fucking accuse pple for not seeing ur personal msg in the first place.
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Eh im hungry. Can i eat you? says:
then its juz too bad that ur using web
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Eh im hungry. Can i eat you? says:
cause imsorry to tell u u came to tok to me at the wrong time
- [[ κιемелτ ]] • im your motherFUCKING PRINCE [ қrz ] © ™ says:
then its just too bad that u are feeling irritated as well
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Eh im hungry. Can i eat you? says:
Oh ? Thats too bad.
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Eh im hungry. Can i eat you? says:
I tink i should block u
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Eh im hungry. Can i eat you? says:
BYE.

And after that, he sent me a frenster msg.

oh well blk then.thanks for doing so. u aint even pretty for me to even bother u are irritated or not. go look urself in the mirror
u are nobody to pple to care for anyway. ;)

And so i sent him back:

Oh wat a joke. You are not at all handsome btw. I hope u know that. Or should i sae I WISHED you knew that. HA. You desperate asshole. And did anyone mentioned it to you that your english really sucked? I think you need to buck up on it. Oh well, Good bye you poor little thing.

He replied:
' ' k l e ment wrote:> at least i look better than you. trust me. HAHAAAA u look totally like shit. ;)

I replied:

LOL? You moron. How can you compare yourself to a girl? Ahh, wat a sad life you've got. I look like shit? You look like dump. HA. Now stop all these childishness you old man.

TATA. And there there there, i blocked him on my friendster.

2007-08-05T23:31:00.000-07:00

Went to work. That bird never sleep. Then dstrb me early in the morning. :x Haha.. Anyway woke up and then go prepare everything. Then took bus to MRT. then spencer called me. HAHA. He crazy one no nid sleep. Haha. Then he pei me tok until i reach shop. Then dom they all keep saying so early i dstrb ppl!?! AHHH? Then me, chang lin, pat, alex and ck outside shop smoke. Then dom so poor thing. HAHA. I sit down den zao geng den dom sae: Wah, early in the morning want let ppl tong coins inside ur pants." HAHA.

They all ah, bully me. Then open shop den we all so slack sia. Then work work work then i go break with changlin. Cause he wan go break with me. AIYO. But rany let him go 1st. Then he so nice wait for me go tgt. Then we went eat le den slack. Then go in store. Actually wan slp. BUT, That idiot slp on my lap. SO i didnt get the chance to slp lor. Ha. Oh yah, anyway. Ck, dom n alex went to break tgt and they like went for 2 hrs ah? So exagerrating right. Wwahlao. Wwe all so pissed lor. Rany asked me to extend till 10 lor. Wah make me scared, cause caixiong meeting me at 8 mah. So i said cannot lor. Hmm.

Work till eight plus. Then rany let me sign off. Had a smoke with alex. Then caixiong came. HAha. He look so different from the fotos. He look so much younger. Like a cute boy boy liddat. Then after awhile alex go off le so me n caixiong go to his bike there at cine. Then so paiseh. I dunno how 2 wear the helmet. HAHA. caixiong is sooo nice. He buy for me sweet sweet. HAHA. Okay, i sound like a pathetic small girl. =(

Then tk his bike. He ask me kiap my legs to him den my jeans too tight. So i keep on complain complain and screaming. HAHA. Then off we went.. So shiok. I love sitting on his bike. But the prob is i dunno where to put my hands. LOL. If i dun hold him i scared i fall down. But if i hol dhim, will feel so werid. But safety comes first la. =D haha. Then we on bike keep on toking. I ask him to put one tv at his meter there. HAHA. Or behind his helmet so i can watch next tym. LOL. so lame right me.

Then we reach amk le go sit sit smoke smoke. Then tok tok. Then after that he send me homeee again. Sent me all the way outside my doorstep, Oh nt really dorrstep but the life there. =) Caixiong. Xie xie ni!!!!!!! Tmr meeting up with him after school. He's gonna send me home. This time better nt wear the jeans again. HAHA. Hmmm. ANYWAY. ytd tok to that big baby. Haha. Who ah? Spencer? do u noe hu im toking abt? HAHA. Then sms jiahao. Then he asked me.... AHHH? Okay. Shhhh. The liddat lor. I feel so weird. Hmm. I don't know. I should give myself more time. Maybe, maybe, its really time to let go of the past. I dont know. A few more days for me to go tink abt it. I'm so stressed up with stuffs.

2007-08-05T12:42:00.000-07:00

Went to Bishan Junction 8 to relief today. Hmmmmmm. Morning rany call me. i tot i dreaming. So i woke up and call back shop. And yes, i supposed to to J8. So i go prepare evrything. Called that piggy caixiong to wake up cause he ask me give him "morning" call. Then left hse. Took the life and realised i have forgotten to take my wallet! AHHHH! So went back and just nice mummy they all leaving hse. So after tk wallet, den left hse tgt. Then when i walking to bus stop, mmummy sae uncle wan fetch me go central lor so i said ok lor.

Then who noes, he go inside carpark. The carpark was so full. And it was alrdy like, 1.28 PM. I supposed to reach J8 at 1.30 PM. Then kanchiong lor. I ask uncle stop den i ran all the way to mrt. Then run to the mrt train. Was panting like siao. Then reach le felt like one small little lost baby. I dunno anyone from there. Then sign in i stand behind all by myself. Then the staffs come tok to me. HA. After a while, i started to talk to dem. Then talk talk talk.

Wadi is the in-charge. He look so cute. HAHA. Then yeah, work lor. I was the 1st to go break. Then go buy cake eat. Then caixiong call me. Cause i daamn bored. That spencer ah, bluff me. Say he go out alone. Liar liar pants on fire. =P HA. Then at j8 no place to sit one lor den go carpark sit. Behind is LJS. Got the glass. Then i sit on the steps there. When i stand up, these few guys laughing at me. They look at me and laugh. Guess why? Cause i sit that time can see my ass. Idiot right this kind of ppl. Make me so embarassed. Then i go sit the other side and smoke. And tok to caixiong lor. Then when time le, i go sign in.

Work work work. Jiahao msg me. Im sorry boy, i sms you like so sian cause i today too busy le. Hmm. I also........... But he damn bad, after that nv reply le. So like nvm. Today i tot j8 can close early. BUT, wadi sae arnd 11. So yeah, at 11 den i go home. Then yahhh. Then received 2 sms from caixiong, 1 miss call frm spencer. 1 unknown miss call, which is spencer's cousin. Called that bird but he didnt ans. So caixiong called me. Then pei mi tok until i reach home. He's coming to fetch me with his bike tmr. After i finish work. Hmm. A little bit scared. I nv even tok to him in real life. AHha. Reach home, on com. Then spencer called me. Aiyo. Then tok tok tok . Then Go bathe. Then come out, receive 1 sms n 1 miss call frm caixiong. Then call him back. Tok abt 10 mins den i sae i was gg to slp le. HAHA. im such a liar. Tmr stil lmuz giv him morning call. Aiyo. That pig. K la. I go do my stuffs le. See u! Will update tmr. Im so happy. =))))

2007-08-03T22:27:00.000-07:00

Weixiong is such an irritating fucker.

omg the pic really look so lovely lor
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
WAHHH
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
SO CONVINCING
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i believeeeeeeeee
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
really la really belive lor
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i tink ah
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i should juz block u
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
oi
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
and get u off my life FOREVER
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
sorry sorry
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
cannot
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
GET LOST
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
oi
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
WHAT
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
sharlene
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
i belive la
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
watever
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i dunwan tok to u ANYMORE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao leh
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
IM SERIOUS AH
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
Get out of my life
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
i reallyy belive la
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
oi wat i do sia
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
U Are a sucker
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao leh wat i do only say dun belive got so serious meh
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
i say i belive liao ma
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
watever
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
really belive la
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
u are so irritating
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i cant stand u
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
SO
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wat i do sia
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
STOP IRRITATIN ME
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
when i irritated u lor.. u the 1 hu say u wan to show me the pic de leh...,. wah lao
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
U ARE THE ONE HU ASK ME TO TK U ASSHOLE
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
ANYWAY
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
IM NT GG TO TOK TO U ANYMORE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao wat have i done la...
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
ok la my fault la sorry k
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
really sorry
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
BYE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
WAHHHHH
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
IM DELETING U FRM MY MSN
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
N MY FRENSTER
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
nononoo
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
oi
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
AND DUN CALL ME ANYMORE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
i say sorry ler right
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
then wat u wan me to do leh
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
die
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
GO DIE LA
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao where got like that 1
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
U SUCK
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
GET LOST
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
suck at wat k lor?
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
U ARE AN ASSHOLE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
at least give me a reason y u wan to neglect me la
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
I HATE YOU!

°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
PLSSSSSSSSSS
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
DO ME A FAVOUR
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
again
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
DUN TOK TO ME ANYMORE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wat i've done?
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
SHUT UP AND STOP ASKING THE SAME THING OVER N OVER AGAIN
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
cause u dun even have a answer for my question
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
CB
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
IM GONNA BLK U NOW
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
okokok
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
u have
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
LAST WORDS FROM ME
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
FUCK OFF
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
I LOVE U
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
LOVE UR ASS LA
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
...
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
sharlene
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
sayang la ok
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
YUCKS
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
NO THX
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
y everytime i kanna scolding from u for no reason 1
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
den too bad
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao leh wat i done lor?
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
eh shut up can
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i bz
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
u see u see

I swear he's the most irritatin guy on earth.

Anyway, monday meeting caixiong. He going to fetch me home with his bike! =)))

2007-08-03T18:37:00.000-07:00

LENON acting macho

Lenon ac ting sissy. Oh look, my art!

Movie tickets.

Nan block my face!

Sharina's abused arms.

Come on, give me a kisss.

NOOO, Dun leave meee.

Sharina n sharlene flirting in class. HAHA.

2007-08-03T15:10:00.000-07:00

Im in a good mood today. Hmm. Okay. Went for cmaths tutorial this morning and went thru the answers. Then after that 2 hour break we went to mac donalds to eat. Smsed Jiahao. Hmm. He said sthhh.. =))

After eat le juvone pei jiamin go see doc cause she sick. Then the rest of us went back to schoo. Went to LT there. Was half an hour early cause the teacher say we always late den better dun go late anymore. But this time, we too early! Haha. Then slack outside lor/ For half an hour. After that go prsp/ Then felt like sleeping lor. Super boring and tired. Grr. AFter that we go lab and play com. My fone want no batt le! So i ask jiahao to go online. Chat with me there. Then he said maybe coming down tmr to find me at work. Said: If i go den muz hug me hor" LOL. Crazy guy he. =/

Then he came online and i chat chat chat. Then go print notes for next week. After that, i receieved a call from Cheryl. She say caixiong want my number. So i said okay lor since so long nv tok to him le. Btw, caixiong is jamie's friend. Last time into den tok tok den nw lose contact le. Then when we go in LT, for cmaths, he smsed me. Then ask me whether i still staying at bedok, if not he can fetch me. Cause he got bike. Ahhh, sad. I told him i staying at amk now lor. Then he said if i dun mind he can come fetch me from home. HAHA. So nice.

Im hungry...

2007-08-03T00:59:00.000-07:00

This feeling is coming back. I dont know why. But the things he said make my stomach churn. I closed the msn window or else i could have copy and pasted it here. Yeah, so like, i guess he thinks i'm a super sensitive bitch. HA. Oh well. Maybe its all too soon. Like i said, i wont get into a relationship so soon. He said: " What's the point of being in a relationship if there's no trust?" Come, let me tell you something Jiahao. It's not that i don't want to trust guys. It's just that everytime i trust them, they just give me really disappointing results.

He also said: I'm not like your other ex lor. Okay, this sounds really really familiar. Ha. The same words over and over again. How to trust and believe? Furthermore, i only know him for a week or so? It's really hard lah. I know, it's all just attraction and infactuation. These feelings will only last for a short period of time. I've learnt my mistake. Never go into a relationship so soon. I will just learn to regret it. What for go through all those hurting experiences?

What i can say now is that i can just wait. And see what happens. Will be meeting up with jiahao again asap. Maybe the week after next. This time i can't predict what happens. Maybe, he would have already forgotten me by then. Then, i know i have not made the wrong choice by not going into this relationship. Just wait and see.

13 more days.

2007-08-02T19:38:00.000-07:00

Im beginning to love thursdays! HAHA. Today vislit damn slack. We didnt do anything cause we already completed our work. (For some of us) So me, jy, juvone n john went to bookshop and got the boards.. Then already spent 1 and a half hour lor. HAHA. Then we went back class and slack slack slack. Then after that break le we all go outside eat.

After break, we went back to sch, but w/o juvone cause she meeting her friend. Hmm. So yeah, cmsk also damn slack. After that str8 away go home and slept. And i woke up like a few mins ago. Hmmmmm. I read brother's blog and he said i was gonna fall in love very soon?!? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! Uh uh, brother ur wrong. BAD BAD BAD. =P

2007-08-01T23:47:00.000-07:00

I was wrong today. I thought jiahao will pangseh me. HA. But he didnt. I wa sslping when he sms me. He say change time and all la. Sae he got 2nd prac. At first i dun believe one. But inthe end after meet him i believe lo. Hmmm. It was arnd 2 plus when i decided to slp. Cause i already forgot about meeting him. Tot he didnt wan to meet me. Then he smsed me. Say 3.30 meet at vivo. So i kanchiong go bathe and prepare and all. I was late la. HAHA. By half an hour.

Reach le i call him den go look for him den saw him. LOL. I from behind scare him. =) Then after that we go walk walk. I go in i.p zone help him find job but they only hire full timers. So sad la. AHAH. Then we go buy movie tickets. Watched ALONE. Then go out smoke. Then walk walk again then let him play my psp. He so funny lor. Make so much noise. Aiyo. HAHA.

After a while our 5.15 show going to start so we go back lor. Then in the cinema not alot of ppl. We sit right at the back. Then the show okok la. Quite scary. Actually wan act brave one but in the end i cover my face. LOL. Cannot la, too much for me. HAHA. Then after that i cold then he took off his jacket let me usee. HA. So niceee. Then after that we go eat. Then tok alot of cock. Then go outside smoke again and tok tok. We sit dwn at the stairs and took fotos. LOL.

So funny lah. He keep on make me laugh non stop. Bth him. Hmm. AFTER that abt 8.30 we left the place and took mrt. Was whacking and pinching him the whole day. Then he said: wahh, first time mit le liddat, so violent. Nxt time sure worse one lah!" LOL. Yeah jiahao, you are right baby! HAHA. :X Hmm. Overall, the day wasnt so bad, Yeah. Anyway im stuck already. In relationships. I dun wan history to repeat itself. Sorry ********. Sorry *******. I tink thats abt it. Pics will be uploaded!

p.s. He said he missed me.

2007-08-01T13:20:00.000-07:00

Yesterday talked to spencer till3 am? Hmm. Weixiong is realli irritatating me. Hate him like hell. I wish he would disappear from my life. He said he would, but eventually, he came back. ARGH! Anyway tok tok tok den went slp/

Morning jiahao msg me said he gotta tk another test. Aiyah, i tink i dun wan mit le. I scared he play me out. Bloody hell. I dunno la. But i already say le. If he wan come my hse i wun let him. Neverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

2007-07-31T19:30:00.000-07:00

Im homeeeeeeee. Today woke up and went sch. Then go for smoke break. ALONE. Then went to school. Saw sharina on the way. Hmm. Then went to canteen lor.

Today school so slack. So like ya. Keep on sms sms. Argh. Then go for lab. Then bah. Im home. HAHA. On the way, changlin call me. Call me laopo lor!! WTH. Then ask mi abt tmr how wat tiem meet and all. Had to come up with an excuse so i said cant la. Then he sae he dun believe. He gt pissed la so i gt pissed also.

Wanted to send him an sms but i send wrong. So embarassing. Sent to spencer. Ha. Aiyo. Then spencer so good sms me all the way till im home. =) Aiya. Im so lazy to blog. Update other time.

I hope nth bad happens tmr.

2007-07-30T23:51:00.000-07:00

Freaking tired. Today did wds online test and i only got 7. Wth. HAHA. Dun care la. Haiyo. Wed confirm meet jiahao le. Go watch movie. At vivo i tink. Hmm. After he finish his bike test den come find me. Hmmm. So sian. Nowadays no life.

Just now changlin ask me how on wed and i said i cant cause need stay back in sch for stuffs. Wat a liar am i. ANYWAY com lag cant blog le.

2007-07-30T17:03:00.000-07:00

Okay. Yesterday night i was msn-ing non-stop and was feelin irritated cause some idiot by the name of Loke Weixiong came to irritate me. Trust me, you won't want to know this kind of guy. He'll just irritate the hell out of you people. I was msn-ing when he came to chat with me. I didnt want him to irritate me so i told him i already found a new guy. Then, he wanted to conference with my "bf". So yeah, i added Jiahao to the conversation. But before that, i told jiahao to act with me le.

Then i added him and we chat chat chat. I was like "Darling what time we meeting tmr?" And he was like" Dardar, bla bla bla." HAHA. So funny. Then weixiong sae: "...... , you better dun go his hse i tell you. I dont allow.""Mr bf, can you give your gf to me?" LOL. Lamer. I was like laughin and laughin. Then talk talk talk den i got irritated so i left the conversation. Then continued to talk to jiahao.

Then talked to a few other people. And yeah. Ming yang called me at 1 plus am and wanted to talk. But i was so exhausted so i told him i very tired but he still kept on dragging. Then ask me stupid qns? And ask me say stupid stuffs if not he don't let me hang the phone. !! But i didnt say it lah. Crazy. I must be nuts if i really said it.

Went to sleep. Did some leg exercise. Then, accidentally pulled my muscle. I was crying in pain. LOL. Wanted to sms someone but i was charging my fone and couldnt move. So i decided to sleep.

Today went to school and felt so tired. Wanted to sleep. But couldnt sleep. but.. When reaching my stop den i felt so tired. GRR. Make me angry. Then went to sch as usual. Was early so went to void deck to hav a stick. Then got this guy came to ask me: "Can i sit here?" So i said okay and quickly smoke finish and left. Saw syam and jy on the way.

Went to sch and stuff. The jiahao msg me! Haha. So unexpected. Then sms sms sms sms. Then ming yang called me and said he in tp. BAH. Watever la dun care him le. =) Today got break den second break go stairs alone. Then, got 2 guys, dressed formally came walking down the stairs. Scare me i thought lecturers. Then one of them said:"Dont worry, we're just students. And wearing formal only. Relax."

After that go slack with the girls and off we went. To class. Might be meeting jiahao on wednesday go out. So might be changing my mind to go out with Chang Lin. =)) See how. Will be back to blog at night. Got test now...

2007-07-29T23:25:00.000-07:00

Kena bully again. Today work den extend till 9 plus. Arghh. So freakin worn out. I want change job lah. Go find new job first den i quit. Today work as usual. Then took charge of the $7 tees. Tgt with Cat. Lol. So messy lor. Then keep on foldin and talkin foldin and talking. Then afetr tat go serve other ppl. And bla bla bla. Then me and chang lin go for break almost tgt. So when i in store, he came in. Then disturb me. Cannot let me eat in piece. Keep on tickle me lor. Idiot. How to eat laa u see.

Then he no space to sit. Then he sit on the chair i sit on his lap. And eat. HAHA. My new soft cushion in store. Hmm. But no peace in eating, so i rush in eating and stuffs. Then he ask me go out pei him smoke. Then share cigg. Then talk talk lor. Might be going shoppin with that hiao-ster on wed again. Go watch movie again. Hmm. =) Might ah see how. See got any other ppl wan ask me out anot. HAHA. Kiddin.

After that go sign in den see rany so bad mood. Slam the fone and keep on shout. Wah den i beginning to scared already. Then soon i realised that the visa/master slips lost. Thats why. But after that he was ok. Today eat alot of sweet. While working. We all keep on pass here pass there. Haha. Then yahh. Hmm. Extend till 9 plus cause rany dun let me go at 8. Say must hit $9.5 k den can go home. Thats why. Then i at the $7 tee with chris keep on fold. Then every shirt i fold i sae: I wan go home.

Haha. Imagine how much clothes i fold? Then started acting cute and all la. HAHA. Then chris bth so he said: Ppl bd grow one year older, YOU.... Different case

So like ya. Then 9 plus i go home le. Then draw uniform and all la.Then took bushome. HA. Done ...

2007-07-29T00:42:00.000-07:00

TIRED. Today woke up late den rush everything. Went to work. Only 3 people opening. So sian. Then ariel n shima always stand at e counter den left me alone serving customers. AH. Thats bad. Then after that 1 chee kian come. He look so boy boy with the cap. Haha. =p

Then slack la w/o rany. Talk and play non stop. After that at 1 i go break. Then eat lor. Smoke 1 stick. Then go back store help write time shit for part-timers. HA. see i so good right. Then after that chang lin come. Afternoon shift. Then he keep on smack me. Wahlao. Then disiao me somemore. Then i went to fitting room see mirror den he close the storeroom door dun let mi go in so i kick the door. And guess what, the door came out. HAHA. The walls tear. Wah den he sae: ORHHH HORR" So loud lor. Then tried to fix the door back. He go use hammer and knock. LOL. So dumb. Anyway, the door's spoilt and can never be fixed back. For good.

Second break go smoke with chee kian. Then talk talk. But b4 that ming yang called me and talk talk also. He alot of rubbish one lor. Hmm. Never change de. Still as flirt as ever. HA.

After that go sign in and continued working. Then chang lin go causeway point relieve. Then i sian liao. Noone to play with me liao, except chee kian. I slapped him 3 times today. HAHA. Hmm. Then kena whack and pinched by the 2 of them! Bully lor. Make me suffer.

Then after work ming yang called me again. Pei me until i on bus. He go pub. Sickening la. Aiyo. Somemore ask me stupids qns which i dunno how 2 ans. ARG. Idiot.

Anyway i gettin kinda tired. I need sleep. I tink. For a while more. Gotta say good bye to peeps online. Nights!

2007-07-27T22:48:00.000-07:00

What the hell, my shift tmr is changed to full shift. Wahlao. Bully my one lor. Irritating. I'm gonna change my job. Damn irritated already. Sucks. Somemore call in the middle of....... Bloody hell. Spoiler.

Oh anyway i'm damn tired and i just hang the fone with spencer not too long ago. Hmm. =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)=) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)

Oh that ming yang is so irritatinggggggggggggggg. HA. I'm tired i tink im sleeping. If not tmr i'll get grouchy again. Ahh. Ihate work. How i wish im rich.

2007-07-27T19:08:00.000-07:00

WHEEEEE. Today school so slack. Had Cmaths test. So lame lor the questions. ARGG! Then after that go slack slack. Hmm. Wwe were late for lecture for cmaths and prsp. As usual. Cause b4 prsp lecture, we in lab playing meal or no meal? HAHAHA. So funnny lor. Screaming like crazy. HAHA. Then print my notes and all la.

Tmr working Afternoon shift. Sian. I tink do closing with rany again. Confirm one. So long no close with dom le. Hmm. Anyway i very lazy to blog about today la. Sorry ah guys. =) oh yah that stupid MING YANG. Say wan come our class on wed. HAHA. Idiot. Better dun let him come. Create havoc only. =/ Hor juvone? Just now go layer my hair and cut it thin. Hmm. Yeah . HAHA. Like no diff.

Want some?

Asked to pose. =) See Dian? LOL.

Look what i did to the leaf!

In lift. Me and juvone.

Me and Nan

My darling and me. =)

Random

2007-07-27T00:25:00.000-07:00

Today superrrrrrrr fun day! I went to sch as usual and have classes as usual. Vis Lit super duper slackk. Cause we go for break for more den an hour. Not supposed to. HAHA. But we like dun care. Then atoday let off early so we go the bubble tea shopand eat. After that go back sch. Met mizi lenon n sun for group work for the cmsk thing.

Then 2.20 we went up. Then our turn den tok alot of cock. Then after that go meet brother. He didnt manage to catch the bus. So i went off to bedok first. Then he forgotten his tickets so had to go home and take again. Then i went library alone , go toilet so mirror and all. Then after awhile brother sae he reaching le, meet at mrt control station. On the way saw aaron and feng hao. Then tok tok. After that jiu go meet brother le. Hmm. Then saw ashley, sihua and her bf. LOL. Thats what i hate abt bedok. Too many ping yians. Seee le also paiseh. Then that aaron msg me. Say alot of paiseh stuffs. But i damn happy laa. HAHA.

Then took mrt to bugis. Talk talk. Then we go bugis le i follow him go eat. I eat the ice cream. Eat until whole mouth then shane kept laughing. HMPH! Somemore bully me! Somemore sae i ah ma! WHY AH?? haha. =p It was drizziling. So we couldnt tk the hot air balloon yet. Then went SHOPPINGGG! WHwooo. Today i bought a few things. Spent quite a alot. Hmm. Then actually supposed to be brother shopping for clothes but in the end i tink it was me. LOL.

Then go shop le go sit the hot air balloon. But b4 that got 15 mins to shop. Then walk all the way back to find my suit. Then while trying, bro sae no time le so i wore it out lor. HAHA. Paid on the spot and ran off. Wahh so embarassing. The skirt so short. I was like: DUNN. VERY SHORTT! AHHH. WAITTT DUN RUN! QUICK QUICK! VERY LOOSEE!

Then in the end we managed to make it on time lah. Then sit le. Very shiok . My ears block. Damn pain lah. Then brother i tink he emo. Then like yahh.. Gave him a biggggg hug! =) Hope he feels better.. After that we took mrt back. To amk. Then took bus to buy his pet food. Then yahh.. After that go back amk to eat! The uncles there very pervert sia. Idiots. Shane talked to me abt some stuffs ah. Then after which, send me home. So sweet right my brother. HAHA. Oh yah shixian broke off with his gf liao. So fast lor. Poor thing. This is called retribution.

Anyway i todae really enjoyed myself very very much! Thanks brotherrr! I Love Youu! =) Oh yah pictures as promised. Becareful ah. Too many. Oh ya. One super duperrr paiseh thing. I today wear th etop, forget to cut off price tag! Lucky jiamin see! Thanks ah jiamin! HAHA. SHHHH.

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2007-07-25T19:35:00.000-07:00

Do i expect a pass for cmsy? NO! haha. Okay today got formal wear. And then went to school so embarassing. With the heels and all. I wear like all black today. Then like almost fell a few times. Argh! Lost balance on the stairs. Lucky nvr fall. Balance myself. Then reach school go meet dian at canteen. HAaha. She alone so yeah.

After awhile more n more ppl came. Wah all look so smart. HAHA. Then went to LT for cmsy lecture. I fell asleep and as usual, nan was taking pictures. Will upload later. After cmsy lecture went up to lab. Then started our presentation. My group was second. Arghh. So lost lor. Nan, again, taking pictures non-stop. Then after our presentation i sit next to sharina. Keep flirting with her. Shit. I tink i'm falling in love with her. LOL. She so sweet lor. I say i cold den she hug me. =P Then shu juan wan steal her from me lor. Arghh. Time pass damn fast la. Then nan keep ask mi dun flirt with her wait jiamin jealous. HAHA. Eh i also jealous hor.

During presentation cher ask me question i got lost. I didnt noe how 2 ans. So like ya, now u noe y i will fail. ahaha. hu cares. Hmm.After presentaion 8 of us, john, jy, lenon, mizi, dian, juvone, nan , shujuan and me go eat mac. Den talktalk talk lor. Then take foto. After eat le go home. In the bus i slept la so tired. Knock my head on the glass 3 times. So damn loud la. But duncare i so tired.

Reach le i call sherrie ask her to bring my wallet. Cause gt recipt to collect my black jeans. Then while waiting gt this guy approach me. Ask me alot of stuffs abt jobs and all. Then the security guard tot i selling things cause i holdin file den dress till so formal. HAHA. So lame. Then after awhile sherrie came. k la i wan go eat.

2007-07-24T23:17:00.000-07:00

Just now after school went to amk hub go g2000. Wanted to try clothes but then the queue very long. But i still queued lah. HAHA. In the end i didnt like the shirt. So i went home and eat my dinner. Then like yah, Borrow clothes from mummy. Aiyah. My formal clothes. So hard to match. And the pants i bought haven call me yet! Bloody hell. Better dun play me out. Tmr i go down and double check.

Just now when i bathing, i on music mah. Then i come out dancing. Like one mad person lidat. I wanted to go mummy room comb my hair. Then still dancing la. I didnt noe her bf came home. Then he like saw me dancing lor. Wah freaking embarassing. Somemore.. Somemore.... Aiyah. Super embarassing can alrdy la. He look at me stunned. Idiot lor.

Just now i cut apples. Mummy ask me cut. In the end i cut my finger. Instead of sayang-ing me, mummy scold me. She said: Aiyo, ask u cut apple only also cannot. You noe wat it means . It means you NVR do hsework one"

Wah, my poor finger bleed le she stillcan scold me. ='( Anyway tmr gonna be damn embarassing tk bus with formal wear. Aarghhh. I really hope i dun fall . =/ Im tired. Nites ppl.

2007-07-24T14:34:00.000-07:00

I ate fish soup. My bloody throat so pain like f***. Supposed to meet zr sk and mathew today but, i guessi got so tired after talking to spencer ytd on the fone till 3 am. wah like damn tired. Then woke up at9. Throat fuckin pain so i decided not to go school. Thought of attending lecture only but felt so tired after all. So i again, decided to skip lecture. Then woke up. Haf to go school cause need to discuss project. Guess what, i'm at lab with all my group mates but we all oing nth except playing our own stuffs. Like wtf. If i noe i dun come so early lor. Can sleep 2 hours longer.

Anyway today i received a few msges when i woke up. Spencer, min fei, zr. So like yea. Min fei suddenly ask me when want to meet. Wahlao dunno wat's his motive again lor. Hmm after that shane msg me ask me want go sit theDHL thingy. Hmm. I replied him but he didnt reply. =/

So like yah ltr i going for lab lessons. Then go shop after all that. I'm so excited. Whooohooooo. OH yah today saw mudd den he like sae: Eh Gita say you see her nv sae hello" And i was like : Huhhh? I didnt even notice her." And he was like:She was just staning beside you!" Oh well. Sorry Gita, i tink my eyesight getting from bad toworse. =(

Anyway today is like a fuckin day for me. I dunno hw to survice tmr. Must wear FORMAL! Bloody hell. Gonna eb damn embarassing tking the bus lor. I hope i dun fall with my heels. Again.

2007-07-24T00:40:00.000-07:00

I swear i'm NOT talking to that jiahao until he talk to me. Wahlao. So desperate lor. Its amazing how guys can flirt to this extend. Wah, seriously la. Disappointing sia. I know the true colours of a guy alrdy. So like yahh. It willl be a longggggggg longgggggggg time before i get into a relationship again. Damn fucked up ah. GUYS!

And there's this weixiong hu keep on irritating me. Oh. He tinks i'm his gf. Like wtf? Dun let me do this n tat. BLA BLA BLA. Assholes. Cb fucking irritated.

Twenty-fourth. Hmm.

2007-07-23T22:38:00.000-07:00

Today i woke up at 7.20. Then tot i lateeee. Then i took my clothes etc... Then rush out. I was like: OH SHIITTTT LA MUMMY I LATE ALRDY LAAAA" Then she's like: i tot u start sch at 12???" Then i was like: Ohh yahhh ahhh. Okay good night!" Then i trieed to go back to sleep. But an sms like make me cant slp ah. Dunno whose one? HA

Then woke up at 10 againn then go bathe and all den left hse. I didnt forget to msg that jiahao lah. So sms him lor. Wah, today my sms over 60+++ Sms like siao lor. Then go sch and met up with sharina. Then go print notes and all. Then go lecture. Then still smsing. (I hate smsing) Then after that break go eat outside den after that go cmaths lecture. Was like damnnnnnn urgent. Cant tahan. Practically going crazy inside LT. Complaining non-stop. So i bear with it until really cannot take it den me n juvone stand up and went out. Lol. So embarassing.

After that go back LT. Then the usual, alot of ppl lookin at us. Then like ya. Then after lt thingy, go tm! Shop shop shop. Shop like mad den saw the Ming Yang. Super suay. Morning still toking about him lor. Then really see until him. Haiyo. Went to 77th street. Got black jeans? Buy tgt with shu juan. But she got her's first. My one either tmr or wed den can take cause no stock. Then go arnd searching for formal clothes. Then finally went back to G2000. Juvone go try clothes. Then i ask the saleswoman to help me check whether else got the pant size. Then she sae bishan so after that we follow shujuan go try her clothes. Sorry shujuan! Today ps u. =(

I today saw kelvin! So qiao lor. He come and pat my head. Hmphh. Make my hair messy. Lol. Then after that at tm go sk/ip zone find winson and fazli. They all so shock to see me. Winson esp. Say i scared until him. Cause i like creep up behind him and hit his back. LOL.

After that i go bishan and take my pants. Try try den it was ok so like yah i bought it la. Then after tat come back amk. Then eat den watch tv den bla bla bla. Today really happening day for me. I was out shopping when changlin suddenly msg me. It says: Hey I*U. I'm like damn surprised i tot he send wrong. Then like yahhhhh.

Oh well. Anyway today spend quite alot on shopping. Sucks. Pocket got hole le. ARGGG.

2007-07-23T01:01:00.000-07:00

I just made a new friend. Wwhoooohooo. And ah, guys are guys la. They always find excuses in order to get your number. Nothing new meh? HA. I'm talking to him and spencer n brotherrr. Ohhh i'm bored thats why laa. Aand my mood better le. TMR SCH 2 HRS ONLY! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Okay shut up. Nite nite peopleeee.

2007-07-22T22:11:00.000-07:00

I'm back after an exhausting day at work. Hmm. Ytd i dreamt of my work collegues! Finally!! HAHA. Then woke up didnt feel like going to work but.. arggg. Still went to work. Then put my stuffs and all and tally cash. Heart beat like damn fast cause i always tally the wrong amount. Luckily today i counted correctly. Then rany gave me a stick. Say i very guai, count correctly at lost last! ARGGG. what he mean huhhhhhhhhhhh!?!?

Opened shop and serve, again. I didnt get any sms excpet for my stepmum. Arghh its a long story. I feel so ... Dunno how to describe the feeling.. But she's leaving my dad for good. Sigh. I guess it's time daddy learn his lesson. I cant do anything to help much. Daddy's gonna be alllll alone now.

Anyway i was like damn stress today cause kept thinking of projects and stuffs. Wahlao super stress. Now think also stress. ARRR!! Anyway changlin today so nice feed me eat ice cream when i foldin clothes. Haha. I was like sooooooooo tempted to eat la. Then i tink he know so he come let me eat. =) Shiok. Then after that i got break with chee kian den he steal my food. Ohh that meanie. Deprived me from eating. Child abuse. Bully. HAHA. Wat rubbish. Then after that go out smoke den tried to "study" but ended up arguing and quarreling with him in store. Then got the hits-here-and-there. Ha. Oh yah, today i was serving some customers den this THAILAND guy came to ask me this n that. After a while he came over to me and asked my name. Wah i tot he wan complain about me lor. But then, he asked me whether he could have my number.. LOL. Eh i'm not trying to show off of sth but... Thailand?!?! Dont tell me he going back thailand and call me everyday and "meet" with webcam or sth ah.. haha. In the end i decided not to give la. For what lor. Then he went out of the shop and den came back twiceeeeee. Keep asking me to serve him. Wahlao. I already damn sian lor. Still come dstrb me. Sickening.

Today shop got conversion but i couldnt stay to do cause i got curfewww! AHHH. Conversion damn shiok laaa. I so long nv do le. Sad, dunno when will be the next time i can do conversion again. I might be quitting my job real soon. Like i said, go join liliang after quit sch. I dunno when laa. See how. ANyway i like damn tired now ah so like yahh.

LAst msg for the day. I decided.... To stay single and not go into BGR for the moment. Might take quite awhile until i have settled all my stuffs. I guess i'm not ready. All i'm given are false hopes n false hopes and more false hopes. This time, serious. I'm giving everything up. No more ____ No more bla bla bla. Juz concentrate with what i'm supposed to be doing now. Seee i'm so matured already. hahahaha.

2007-07-22T00:29:00.000-07:00

I finished work a little earlier today. Haha. So tiring but time passes so fast. The moment i saw chang lin. I got so paiseh lah. Then start to hit him and all. All his fault! Made me do sth on the day we went out! SEE LAAA. Then i tot i was late but hashima sae sign in time for afternoon shift was 2. So i wasnt late! HAHA!

Then serve serve serve den talk abit den felt a bit sian. Then 5.30 changlin ask me go eat! I went for a stick. Ok only a stick hor. Then go buy ice cream to eat. Then go store talk to dom. Then after sign in. Hmm. Today 3 people asked me whether i mixed blood. So like the 1st 2 i sae no la. Then the 3rd one ah.. HAHA. Then dom they all kept laughing. Cause i ........ HAHAH. Okay shut up.

Then serve this customer. She keep on saying: too short too short. I want longer de short" So i like replied: Wahh no lahh. You must wear short short! Wear short short sexyyy!~~~~" I was like acting like one retard at there. Then she at there want laugh dunwan laugh. Aiyo. Wan laugh den laugh la. Dun paiseh.

Ok i guess i;m gettin tired case talking rubbish. Cant think le. I sms ____ and he replied! A longgg longg reply. Ha. But after that... DEAD. So i come online and scold him! Then yahh. Chatting with him now. Going off soon. Haha. Ok. I tmr morning shift. Shiok. And the chang lin like high fever!?!? Shit. I hope i no need extend full. AHHH. ____ my love. Ok. Rubbish.

Oh yah. Anyway today big boss came down shop. And like yahh. I super stressed. MAybe u all dunno why .. But yah. He's an old pervert. For some reasons. He came to talk to me. Then ask me why i wearing old uniform. Then like question rany: Why let her wear the old uniform?" So embarassing lor. Wait ppl tot i wat... After tok a while i managed to "escape" then yah. Dom the all keep sayign stuffs ah. BAd ppl. Bad bad ppl.. Ha, k la i go slp le cause he also gg slp le. And tmr have to wake up early........ I cant wait for clubbing. I kept thinking n thinking. in shop. ahaa and then tink of outrageous stuffs la. Which will nv happen. Lol.

I wan sleeeeeeeepppppppppppppp! p.s. Daddy calle dme EIGHT times on my hp when im at work. And smsed me FOUR times. and not only that. CALLED SHOP TO LOOK FOR ME. and guess what. Borrow $$$$ . Kept callin n calling. Oh well. After all he my dad. So went all the way to posb during my break. And transfer tohis acc.

2007-07-21T12:39:00.000-07:00

I dreamt of him again. Its's been 3 consecutive times. Arghh. Why?!?!?! It's so horrible. God punishing me lah i guess. ha. Oh well, i must not think i must not think. It's just a dream. Cannot think. Cannot talk to him. If he really wants this friendship he will talk to me. But yah. So yah.

It doesnt really matter anymore lah. I guess. Oh well. Rem i told u i send ____ an sms? His reaction damn funny. I was giggling. Then sms awhile i go sleep le. Hmm. That zombie. No need sleep one. Okok. dun get carried away. I gottago work already. See yah ppl. Enjoy your day!

2007-07-20T22:32:00.000-07:00

Guys are just so guys. Damn irritated.. He alrdy got gf still want flirt flirt flirt. Think i wat? Toy 4 u to play issit. hope u n ur gf dun last. Sorry ah, a bit bastard. Anyway i decided to sms ____. I send him one damn stupid msg la. Ha. Watever.

Noone la. Noone.

2007-07-20T21:14:00.000-07:00

I went to have a short nap. But i didnt know that short nap was so horrifying. I swear. I had a nightmare it made me cry. I can still feel it now. He was in it too. Ha. I dont know why. But yeah, it was scary lah.

Anyway pictures.

2007-07-20T18:23:00.000-07:00

I'm leaving. I'm not supposed to say what but i am. Soon. Sigh. I hate this feeling. It's gonna be so isolating even more. When the time is right. 6 more days.. hmm. MAybe i should stop countdown-ing cause it does matters really much anymore. The feeling's different. And i dont know why. I'm back to the happy-go-lucky girl i used to be. Only for 1 min of the whole day, i tend to tink of some stuffs. Yeah.

Today schoolw as boring as usual. I hate school. Yeah it sucks. During breaks we went out to eat and the bought bubble tea. The aunty n uncle took half an hour to talk so like yah. Ha. Then eat le we went back to sch for lessons. Then after that gt another break we went to lab to play isketch. SO funny. Me, sharina and nan were practically cheating. Ahh. Whatever la. Cheating is fun. Must do it more often.

Anyway i dont know ..... Argh nevermind. When the time is right then i say okay people. But i guess you all will be surprised too. Ahh, what am i saying hmm. Okay nevermind. I love u all people take careee. 6 more days ah. =) Oh yah pictures? LAter den upload. I'm tired. Go slp first...

Anyway mummy patched back with her bf again. Oh well. I hate it lah. Its like she can do the stuffs she wants to but we cant give any say. Treat us like what liddat. She has not been talking to me for 2 days. So whatever k. She want do wat with her bf is none of my business. Life is fucking unfair. I hate it. HAte it hate it hate it. These few days haven been talking to many people except for classmates. In school At home, all alone.

2007-07-19T18:38:00.000-07:00

Finished school at 3.30. We did role play today. Class like so hyper today. Hmm. After that waited for bus. Saw john and joseph. Then after that min fei walked towards me. I didn feel like talking. So i just ans him 1 word 2 word. Then they went off. My bus came shortly after that. Then took bus home. Played my psp in bus. Then after awhile gt no mood.. Tried to sleep. But couldnt. Reached my destination. Go buy contact lens. I'm wearing expired lens.

Hmm. Then got these few secondary school boys. Yah you noe la. Disturb only. Then they walked behind me. I thought they going home or sth so i didnt care la. Until when i reaching home they walked towards me. And talked some shit lah. You noe the usual. Hmm. So they looked damn young like kiddies and xiao didi. I told dem i was 18 and then they all seemed uninterested alrdy la. HA. And yah, they are 15, 16. I guess. Aiyo. So typical of them.

Hmm i went home and jerry chatted with me. Hmm. I told him a secret. HA. Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Only he knows. And if he leaks it out i'm deadddd! Then i'm like kind of in the same boat as him la. Hmm. Only that the girl noe he likes her. Oops. Sigh. I'm starting to feel isolated from everyone right now. In school, at home. I guess work is the best lah. My collegues nv fail to make me laugh n smile. But. Sometimes la. Hmm. I realy must change le lah. I'm losing friends and people around me. Slowly... I'm sorry peeps. =/

Oh well. I actually planned to sleep. But i guess computer is the culprit la. See laa. Aiyo. MAke me lose sleep. Hmm. =) Oh yeah anyway 1 more week to go. 7 more days. Ok only i noe so like wth? Say also no use. I'm just giving 1 week. AFfter that, its gone gone gone n goneeeeeee for a LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG time.

Anyway gotten rid of brendan. WHOOOO. I'm happy. Feel a sense of accomplishment. Okay im bad. Sorry had to do it cause i really hate irritatin people.

2007-07-19T13:24:00.000-07:00

Congrats to sharlene. She got into deep shit cause of HIM again. It ruined my mood yesterday. Let me tell you guys what she sent.

Tot Wed you supposed 2 come back early? Mummy saw ur neck has ********, you better watch yourself b4 i throw u inside girl's home. Ask your stupid bf to come see me. All guys are so damn good 4 nth. You better dun get conned by them.

Next msg:

You better behave if u still wanna stay here. This is not a free hotel and hv respect 4 me, ur sis n the gods at home. Ask ur stupid bf 2 come see me.i wanna see what kind of conman he is

Yah. Out of the blue she sent me that msg. I'm like wtf!?! I was really enjoying myself yesterday until she sent me that fuckin msg. AND FYI I DONT HAV A FUCKING BOYFRIEND. USED TO. Not ANYMORE. So like stop accusing me lah mother. I dont wanna tell u stuffs cause u are so unreasonable at times. How am i gonna show u my "boyfriend". I got it like accidentally? I didnt want it. AND now i got into trouble. I went home and she didnt talk to me. AT ALL. Didnt even let me use the fucking com. I waited from 10 to 1. She kept the com in her room. I was pissed and tired so i went to sleep. So unreasonable. Fuck. It's always like that. I dont wanna tell him anything anymore cause i feel that he wun be interested at all and cant do anything at all. Anyway all these shit i will handle it myself. Damn irritated. All alone already. By my own.

Okay back to talk about ytd. I woke up at 1 and changlin said he will reach at 2. Then i got ready quickly and reached the mrt control at 1.50 pm. Had a quick smoke and sms him. He say he willw ill tell me. I waited n waited and guess what time he came? Erm, 2.40? HA. I got so pissed off i pretend i dunno him. Then he keep on talking n talking. And i was there nagging and nagging. Then we took mrt to somerset and go buy movie tickets. We watched Transformers. Inside cinema so cold lah. So........ Hmm. Then during movie we both urgent to go toilet and den so embarassing must stand up and block people. Ha. After that continued watching.

Oh yah before the movie we went to eat. He sae he felt like eating kinokuniya? LOL? It sells books. He want to eat books! Lol silly boy. Then we ate yoshinoya. Then he keep on making me irritated. Ask him dun do sth, he ping ming want to go do. Aiyo. So stubborn. Then i take alot of fotos of him. HAHA. He got so pissed off. I wun upload it cause he too paiseh. So like yah. Then after movie i ran out to go toilet. Freaking urgent. Then after that we shop shop and smoke smoke den time passed very fast. Then when at topshop that time he choose his stuffs very long and that;s when i received mummy's sms. Like cb. Spoil my mood. Then changlin ask me what happened and all la. So i sae i very "fan". Then he ask me: Wan bao bao anot? Only got this once lei. LOL? So.... Haha. Okay. Then he buy his stuffs le we walked to fareast. i go find liliang. Wahlao his work freakign slack. So shiok. After i quit school i also want go work with him le. =)

Okay. So we walked there den chit chat awhile den we left. Changlin and i waited for our own buses. While waiting. He asked me to bao da him cause he treat me watch movie bla bla bla. Then he like keep hinting sth. Haha. So like yah. He's a greedy boy laaaa. i feel so weird. I dunno how to face him in shop le. LOL. Before i board the bus, sth sth. Then in the bus he sms me and yah. Stupid lah he. Talk nonsense. Aiyo. I must self-control le. I hate my life right now laa. Family, sch, work. Bla bla bla. I feel that noone cares la. Except for a few. So like. Why bother? I must get used to it already.

Work life is getting nearer for me. Study life is drifting apart. Soon. I', sick of this life i have. I want to do sth different. Sth different that noone expects. Oh well. I seriously can't care anymore. Let my mother call the police for all i care. It always the same exucses she has. Watever la mother. You not sian of repeating the same stuffs, i am damn sian of hearing the same stuffs. The truth is: I HATE GOING HOME EVERYDAY. swallowing those atitude of yours, pretending i dont even exist. I hate my life. Those irritating guys around me. Those insults, those bla bla bla. I must change. Change change change.

I am damn affected by everything now. I'm not talking to anyone online unless they talk to me alrready/. Im not gonna start any converstations already. Sometimes, just have to tink la. I dunwan to be so irritating, so loud, so rough, so bla bla bla. I know how it feels la. Yeah. So when i'm not in school or whatever, i dont know when it'll be, i hope i'm able to give people a much better impression of me. I realised. I'm not going into any relationship yet. Until i'm ready. Now it's just not the right time. I won't use substitude anyone for him. I'll wait till everything's over and then, i'll continue with my life.

Whatever it is. I just want my life to like fastforward. For about 4 years? So like i can have my own free space, my freedom, my everything. I hate it laa. Anyway changlin, i enjoyed myself v much ytd. (except for the waiting part) HAHA. Okay lah. I tink i've blogged enough . Wah, it's long so yeah. Happy reading.

2007-07-17T23:24:00.000-07:00

Okay i'm freaking bored so im here to blog for the third time. HA. Okay. I'm getting irritated and scared of brendan. Im serious. He freaks me out can. And there's ***yan. Also damn irritating. I swear laaa. Why must these people keep bothering me. Wwahlao eh. Damn fucked up one can. OH F***! Talking about them. They just talk to me on msn. SIGH. I am so irritated. Later go do some revision. Hmm. Then go sleep. Then tmr.. Can go out le!! Anyway just now mummy like saw the fuckin thing on my neck. Cb, hope it fades asap laa. Bloody hell. And, she saw my frenster's private pictures. Dead shit lah.

Though i know i cant be hers...Everywhere...Everytime...Always...There's only one name on my lips and its her name.... says:
sry bout tat sistar...anyway i was just asking bout ur project tats all
Though i know i cant be hers...Everywhere...Everytime...Always...There's only one name on my lips and its her name.... says:
cause from wad i heard IT proj vry interesting one
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Let Go. Start Anew. says:
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Okay. What now? Sister? HA. My god. Okay nvm. That brendan also laaaa. Wah im going crazy. Must run away from them le. I go chat with changlin better. HA. And i just send ____ a friendster msg. =) I told shane what im feeling now and he ask me not to get into any relationship for the moment. Hmm. We'll seee brother. Maybe all these are just a one sided love or just puppy love. I dont know. But, i'm single and there's no more restrictions already. I'm going clubbing in 2 weeks time. WHOOO. Super excited.

Tmr tmr tmr tmr tmr tmr. So looking forward. HA. Changlin, i owe u sth and u owe me sth toooo! =D Shhh. Secret ok? haha. Oops. I dont even noe how to give it to him. Like so weird? Ahh, we shall see whether he gives it to me tmr then. Okay.

Br3nDaN - . . . . . . says:
haha
Br3nDaN - . . . . . . says:
ltr chat on the phone wif me when u r free?
Br3nDaN - . . . . . . says:
i dunno y when i c u i dunno wad to say le
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Let Go. Start Anew. says:
ohh
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Let Go. Start Anew. says:
den no need say anything lor

I tink im getting quite irritated now. Gottago peeps. Nights all.

P.s. Sth is wrong with mummy. I dont know what. But i noe. .. Theres sth wrong and happening. I'm so afraid.

2007-07-17T20:25:00.000-07:00

Finally, I'm back home. Wat a boring day! I reached amk early so had to wait for brendan. Then had a few sticks den he called me. Then saw him. He was in his army uniform. Lol. He looked so different. And i've made up my mind. He's not my type. HA. Nevermind. There's still ____. We went to bishan park to slack. Then smoke smoke smoke den i got bored so ask changlin to help me out. When he called me i was like:Mummy ah, i coming home alreadyyyyyyyyyy. Dont so loso can anot ah? Pleaseeee. Erm, i want eat fish porridge. Okok im on my way home now. He was like: HUH? Ni zai jiang she me? Shen jing bing ah? HUH????? Oioioi. Haha.After awhile i left.

Go home le he call me again. Deni told him la. I was acting and he sae tmr i dieee. I wan kena slap from him le. Yippieee. Im so happy. I'm gonna get slapped tmr. Cant wait. Whoooooooooooo.Anyway i thought about it for a long time while i was alone. I should just forget everything that happened. What happened already happened. I should just forget it. Spencer. Sorry. I know nth will work out anymore. So like yah. Maybe i wont be talking to you anymore. Or should i say maybe you wont be talking to me anymore. Ha. Oh well. Forget it. It's all up to u now.

Hmm. Tmr i not going sch! Going watch movie with changlin! So excited la so long never go out have fun le. Wwheeee. I got plans le. Today sort of like ***** with him on msn. Hmm. So funny. He's such an "innocent" boy. HAHAHA. =P I tink he needs a good teacher to teach him ah.

I'm getting quite pissed of with everything right now. So many stuffs to do. So many stuffs to think of. Oh yah, anyway thanks bro for caring. Your break u also bothered to call me. I love you la. You're the best k. HAHA. =D

Ok lah. I tink i go do my stuffs. I'm like tired. And a lil lazy to blog. I'm accepting reality. Good luck *******.

2007-07-17T14:46:00.000-07:00

Okay, so i have given up COMPLETELY. Its over. i feel so stupid. And i meant it. I regretted. And his words like super fucked up and disappointing. I have to admit that. I thought we were still together. Cause of what actually happened. But what happened after that? He said he not sure. I dont know but i just get this really funny feeling.

I give up already. Like fuck. I should have listened to shane all along. I feel really stupid and naive and gullible. Why did i do it? Somemore, he said what fuck him for loving me bla bla bla. Eh come on ah, Whats that supposed to mean. I am like at a disadvantage. Not YOU. I've done so much and this is what i get in return. Like thanks! HA!

Seriously, i swear i'm gonan find myself another better guy lah. Someone who i can really trust and who i noe is not taking advantage of me or playing with my feelings or whatever lah. And lastly, love me instead of telling me stuffs like "fuck me for loving you" . HA. What a joke can. There is now, more hate then love. I feel damn fucked up. I dont care already man. I'm gonna enjoy myself. LAter meeting Brendan at amk inter go eat. He today pei me tok till i reach school. Then tmr going meet changlin at amk inter. We going shopping, watch movie eat ice cream!! At least i'm getting occupied.

Just now went design eat. Saw ____. HA. My frens like keep making me. Oh well. My heart did jump a little when i saw him. Somemore sit opposite him. Wahlao. Nan, Jiamin, shu juan. Watch out!! HAH. After eat le den come lab. So yah. Here i am.

To someone out there: If you dont wanna tok to me anymore, so be it. Its your fucking choice. I'm not losing out. What you have done, will never be forgotten. I won't give in anymore. Enough is enough. Take care ah. I'm so over you.

2007-07-16T22:58:00.000-07:00

Today waste of time going to school la. There wasnt any Cmaths lecture. like.. WTH? Wahlao den go cmsy lecture for about 45 mins den can go le. Then afer that we girls go tm eat long john. Okay lah den after that go walk walk. See stuffs. Then after that took alot of pictures. Bla bla bla. JiaMin took one very NICE picture with the simpson family. HAHA. Super funny laaa.

After that go meet spencer. Den slack till 6 plus? Ahh, something something something... =/ I was late in meeting shane. Brotherrrrr I'm sorryyyyyyyy!!!! No more second time. Promiseeeeeeee. Then met him den go slack also. tHEN LEFT AT 845. Saw Gita. And her friend. Whoo. So coincidence. HAH. Eh brother. Remember hor. Your break i go ur hse there swimming. HAHA. Cant wait. =)

Then brother shocked when i told him sth la. Then he like walk away from me?!? So bad lor. Leave me all alone. I will get lost one lei. Saw liliang at the craft shop. He working there. So shocked also. Hmm.. Today saw a few friends at tm. I go snk find chris and the weekiong. Saw fazli. Then after that saw liliang, den saw gita den saw cheryl den hu else i saw ah/ I forgot la. HA. Suan le. Hmm. Im tired.

p.s . Someone say wan quit smoking but in the end still smoke. HORRR HORR HORR?? Naught boy. Must piak pigu le. =D Pleaseee my dear boy, mean what you say. And get enough resttttttt!!!! You look so deaddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

2007-07-15T22:12:00.000-07:00

Today, I got not alot of things to blog. But the day was okay in the morning. I was like damn hapyy, damn happy. My collegues make me happy. I still go disturb the maids. HAH. The maid drop the clothes on the floor and i was like: ORHHHH, You make drop! YOU MUST BUY ALL!! Then she so scared keep saying : sorry sorry, sorry. Lol.

Then serve n serve den rany keep dancing. Imagine laaa. Dance the he bao dan song. Idiot lorr. Make fun of me. HAHA. Then break time saw baleno in charge den go eat with her. She bring her friend come down look at me, say i looking for bf. WTH? Then still intending to intro somemoreeeeeee. Aiyo, she not the only one. Jasmine and chris also laaaaaaaaaaaaa. Say the person from I.P zone amk. Alamak. I free den i go down see which one ok? lol. But... I'm not ready for another relationship YET. No feelings, no relationship. I guess it takes time la. I msg brother today, told him how i felt. Then he gave me advices again. it's hard. But i have to try. Try really really hard. I must promise myself this. I shouldnt get "emo" over it and ruin my day. I must get along with lifeeeee. Im young, im young.

At work, jasmine couldnt believe what kind of person i was. She says i loook sooooooo innocent.. But when something came out from my mouth, she was SHOCKED. hahaha. Oops. I ruined my innocent image. ='( Aahhhh.

Go out. Go out with____ Cause.... Oh welllll. I ..... Hmmmm.... Ah well. I suck. HAHA. So lame.

2007-07-15T00:22:00.000-07:00

Ytd talked to Spencer till like 4? Or maybe earlier , i dont know. HA. But like damn funny ah.. Hmmm. Spencer, naughty boy youu.

Today woke up late. Then took bus to work. Also late. Aiyo. But i not the lastest sia. AMAZING. Chee kian came half an hour late. Best la he. Then work work work den go break den chat with kevin cause he came. Ask me how me n my bf. Chee kian also ask. lol. So weird. So i told them i no bf la and bla bla bla. Kevin ask me how and so on la. So i told him and he advice me on some stuffs. Maybe he's right la. But it's so hard.

Then after that i saw jerry. Lol. SO coincidence. Then like yah. I today work kept telling myself to concentrate. But somehow, i couldnt. Kept thinking and thinking. The truth, it still hurts la. Hard to say no. I dunno why i lied to him. Maybe i'm just angry with what he said. So yeah. Believe it or not laa. Shant say why cause a bit private.

I feel so stupid la. But what to do, sae also sae liao. Cannot do anything about it. Arghh. I just have to leave it. Gan qing shi bu ke yi mian qiang de. HA. Dumb dumb. Rany today happy mood so he like kept playin with me. Aiyo. Uncle so old liao stillwan play! But i guess everyone today happy so made me a little happy too. =) But....

Wah i so long never see that chang lin liao lo. He go IMM relief. AND.. tmr alex coming again. ARGGG. i must say i am damn scared of him. He gives me the "creeps". AHHA. Sian. I want to die. Eh no la. Die my head. I fell damn werid sometimes. The feeling.. Dont want sae le la..... Aiyo. Im freaking tired and exhausted. I tink i need to go off le. Nites people. I love you all. LOL?

2007-07-13T19:20:00.000-07:00

I'm feeelin so down today. Friday the 13th. Really unlucky. Morning my right eye kept twitching. I knew sth bad would happen laa. I wento ssch and slack and yeah. My wds got deleted and i had to redo laaaaa! f***! Anyway, i give up le lah. I sms him but he like nt interested to talk to me. I'm just doing stuffs to ............... AHH. Shall talk about it other time when i'm ready to do so.

I'm lying. To myself. Maybe really fate bah. Fated to stay single. Haaa. Wwhatever. I really give up le. Now try to concentrate on my studies. Trying laa. HAIZ. Aiyo. Miss natasha today come find me again. Warning letter! Never pay school fees. The school going to kick me out already. HAHA. Wwhhhooooooo. Confirm wont pay again lor. Daddy i tell him so long le until now still haven pay. Whateverrrrrrrrrrrr.

Deadline on tues. We'll seehow it goes la. I dont care le. I today really super down. Superrrrr. IMHIMHIMHIMHIMHIMH. but..................................................

The truth, it still hurts. Although not much. After all, it takes time. I don't want to give myself false hopes anymore. It will hurt even more la. It's like i feel that im irritating the people around me. Noone bothers to talk to me. I hate it. Hate this feeling. Help la god....................... I'm half dead already . I'm too ...... I dont know whats the word to describe. But.. Oh well. I'm stuck at home ALONE today. Actually got plans but.... ahhh sae also no use le.

Given up. On everything. Well, not all. But.. Yahh.

2007-07-13T00:26:00.000-07:00

He called me. Im so shocked laa. I sent him a good night msg den sms halfway he didnt reply. Then after a while i receieved an unknown num n answered. Yeah, it was him. We chat for 7 mins. Oh well...... Its enough.

I'm in a good mood now. I finally finish my wds, just left the frame to do. And whoohooo! Tmr coming back late i guess, if there is plans. Shall meet up with people who are available. =) So rare can slack till latee. WHoohooooo!~

2007-07-12T16:03:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling soooo much better today. Haha. Looks like it's taking faster then it should. I went to sch and did vislit. Go print my pictures. Thanks brother for helpin me out! =D Hmm. We watch cartoons lahh. So boring the cartoon. Hahaha. Dunno wat fantasia.

After that jojo called me! He was waiting outside library for me. Tgt with jerry. A little bit ps la. Then we went to ITAS canteen. He looks better when he smile. =) Ahh. I'm feeling weird. I smsed him after he left. Then he like take so long to reply. And i keep on checking out my hp. haha. Oh well? Ahh, happening too fast lah. Control!! Then smsed him until i reached home.

I'm quite happy la today. And it's serious, im not trying to console myself or whatever shit. MAybe its true, fading fast. Brother brother, i try to heed your advice and tk things slowly k. I try. HA. xD

Will update tonite. Waiting waiting waiting.............

2007-07-12T01:25:00.000-07:00

I done my wds le! Left add in some text. i can do that tmr. =) Oh yeah i'm feeling like damn weird. Like sth's missing. I must get used to it! I mustttt! After putting my nick: Amazing. I'm single, once again. It's just not meant to be. So many people come talk to me. haa.

Tmr meeting jojo n jerry, friday going meet brother, Sat sun work. Nxt week wed meeting chang lin go watch movie. Go shopping go eat ice cream! Yummieeee. I just finished talking to ash. Told him everything. He told me some things too. Ahh, But i noe spencer's most prob not gonna forgive me la. So yeah, what's the point of saying so much now. It's damn impossible. Will miss ___ but, shall get used to it. The feelin will fade evantually.

Oh yeah i went to min fei's hse again today. That fucker has got fucking intentions. Cb. It's like 3 days ago he ask me go hiis hse do the wds thingy. He sae he noe, he can help me. But todae i went, he was playing his fucking DOTA. And then i ask him help me, he ask me go find google myself. Cause he nt too sure. So what does it means? It means he has got fucking bad motives. He asked me to stay till 6, which was left with 1 hr. I said no ah and left at 530. He didnt let me go. But i went out myself.

He lied on his bed. And i kept saying bye but no response den after he ask me stay till 6. It's like he's hinting me to go into his room again. Like no, cause ytd bro alrdy scolded me. I didnt dare do it a second time. Furthermore, i n spencer like talking again. Ididnt want to make the wrong move again. So i just left. I hate min fei la. He's a bloody user. Cb kia lei. I swear i'm never going his hse again. Oh well, too late. Wwhat's done cant be undone. I cant help it but keep feeling damn fucked up. Why sia. Ok, maybe its partly my fault, but i really got no intentions. Whats the point of keep saying n saying. Its over. Why do i even care so much.

I hate myself. I wish i could think b4 i do something. I WISH. I'm driven to nuts soon. I miss ___. Yet i dont. Fucking irritatin feeling. Let go, girl. Its over.. Over.. Stop thinking and get on with life. I'm so disappointed in myself, and in him. AND him. I'm not emo-ing ah. Just feeling damn bad and down. LMF is a motherfucking user. I boil when i think about it. They way he does it/ ARGHHH! THIS is NUTS LAH. slp slp slp. Dun tink le.

All i can say now is sorry. There's nothing more i can do.

2007-07-11T21:42:00.000-07:00

Oh well, i broke up with him. Confessed. He's gonna hate me. Whatever. Gratitude lei. What a joke. I guess its time to get on with my life again. I'm sure i'll be able to find a much better guy. Im still young. Maybe it will take about 2 weeks or so. I dont know.

Spencer, i hate you. But i guess you hate me too. So yeah. Hope u dun hold it against me ah. And remember what i told you. Hope we still can be friends. I'm sorry lah k. I know it wont be possible to get tgt in future. Ha. I dont expect it either. Your feelings fade, mine did too. Thats why i dun feel so sad den b4.

Tmr meeting jojo n jerry at itas canteen eat! Must cheer up! Time will pass very fast one! Come on come on. Enjoy life. Again, im sorry spencer.

2007-07-11T19:26:00.000-07:00

Whatever lah. The truth, its fading. Ha. Cant be bothered anymore. Everything changed anyway. No hard feelings. Whoo. Time to enjoy.

2007-07-11T12:01:00.000-07:00

Things did not turn out the way i expected it to be. I need self-reflection. I cried. It was too much. Why.. Why must it happen. The bad things all came at the wrong time. All "clash" together. I couldn't believe it actually happened. Why did i even go.. Why!?

I'm so disappointed. Truthfully. I know, its bad. Brother. You were right, i should get a slap from u. You should have scolded me before everything. Knock some fuckin sense into me. Whyy.. God..... Went home all alone. Told brother wat happened. He was damn angry with me. Scolded me. Haiz. I'm sorry.. I didnt expect it either. It was so shocking. So unexpected. How.. tmr? ARGH!! Life is so unfair.

Brother talked to me until i reached home. I was so sad and disappointed lah. All the way home. Chat with him but he didnt want to reply me just yet. So i cant do anything also. Sms also no reply. No response. Argh. Just when i needed someone. Luckily there's still brother. I feel damn sad now laaaa. Daddy called me and told me sth. My heart dropped. Damn pain. Why sia. WHY WHY WHY. I'm not ready!!

Today is so just not my day. Bd news bad news and more bad news. So disappointing. Better finish my wds fast and get some sleep. Oh i haven done my proposal yet. Shit la. This time really si le. I no mood! HOW!?!?! Mixed feelings. Sad, disappointed, angry, stress bla bla bla. Anyway stupid jy sae i fat today. AHH. I heck care already man. I'll get used to it. Someday. MAybe now. Oh anyway Happy birthday shujuan!

Come let me explain..

Ohhh?

Enjoyin my game.

Aiyo. Sharina kpo lei. xD

My cute psp game.

Juvone see me play game

2007-07-10T15:47:00.000-07:00

Yippieeee now not as stress le. Having JAVA now. Freaking sian. Tmr will be meeting up with mf. He gonna help me with my project! Better ahhh! Don wait later ps me let me do myself. ARGG. Alex is irritating me. Seriously. I'm so pissed off with him. I think he got it all wrong! Better tell him properly. Anyway im nt replying his msges. =/

Yeah so tmr i'll be having sth on laa. Im so happy better den rotting at home. Thinking of stuffs. HA. Think n think alot le. Its time i should get used to it. Since i dont know when he's gonna tok to me again. Oh well.

Tmr meet mf le beforer 5 must leave liao. Lucky finish sch same time as him. If not ah , damn mafan lor. Sch finish abt 1. Hopefully he can help me with my wds abit la. Haha. xD LMF!!!!! I'm leaving my future in your hands ah!! Do a good job tmr! =)

P.S . MY fucking psp spoil. Must go back complain le!!!! HMPHHHHH

2007-07-10T11:32:00.000-07:00

Today joseph was late lorrrr! Come at 8.45. GRRR. Then we go eat breakfast den after that jiu leave le. Took bus 25 and change bus den saw cheryl in bus. She so blur lor. Never see me. I just in front of her onli lor. HA. then i sms her den she sit nxt to me. Wah now den i noe my cousin , and caixiong n eddie same class as her. So coincidence. Then after that tok awhile den she must drop le.

That joseph so funny. Sleep until like wat liddat. Haha. Then we go walk around the whole sch find lab den cannot find. Then find dian they all den nw at lab. Saw ash. Hmm. Oh yah tok to him liek for awhile ytd. He told me sth ah. Got me thinking of stuffs.

2 and a half days. God. ..

2007-07-10T03:10:00.001-07:00

wah his com still hard to type as usual

2007-07-10T01:42:00.000-07:00

Have been chiong-ing wds for the past few hours. Keep on redo-ing. No mood lei!!! Tmr meeting joseph at amk there at 830. Go eat breakfast den go sch do project. Damn shag. My school fees haven pay yet and tmr is the deadline. Shiok.

Two days have passed.. I don't know how long more it's gonna take. I'm very tired. Too much stuffs on my mind. And i'm trying my best to be more sensible. ... I am damn frustrated now. Feel like screaming. Please god, help abit can? Pleasee.

I already have something in mind le. Brother knows. And he's finally seeing the sensible side of me. Right bro? :) Oh god. One step at a time. What;s meant to be is meant to be. I'll just have to accept it then.

Sleeping time! I.k.o.m.h. Damn.D.c.h.n.c.m.o.t.t.m.a.a. Haizzzzzzz. FYI, my secret code only i understand. Ha.

2007-07-09T11:49:00.000-07:00

Im not feeling good. So bloated. ARGH! Dont know why. In school now. WDS/ Freaking bored. WHYY WHYYY WHYYYYYYY!?! Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh wat the hell. Thanks people who have been there to cheer me up. Like dom, shane, rany bla bla bla. For a moment you guys make me not think of stuffs. Arghh. I hate this feelin!

It always happen. Just that this time is much more different. =/

I.m.h.

2007-07-08T22:50:00.000-07:00

Today woke up early go meet alex. Eat mac breakfast. After that go in shop. Rany ok le. Told us sth damn shocking. Chris.. Better take care. Then after a while more jiu open shop and serveeeee. Damn fucking sian. Rany come sayang me, touch my head, give me a quick hug. Cause he see i like no mood. Then ask me to stop thinking lor. So fatherly. Lol even my own father dont do that laa. =/

Then serve le play with that alex and bla bla bla. He sicko laa. Keep....... Dont know what to sae. So not used to it. Dont like the feeling. After that go slack. Go break play my psp and time passes so fucking fast. Then go sign in and at 8 sign out. Leg so tired. Met min fei at amk hub. He was with 1 fren. He damn quiet. Follow him go eat and talk awhile den i go home le.

Tmr gonna be damn tiring. Help. Im so stresss! So much things on my mind. And noone can solve it. Ahhh.

2007-07-07T11:11:00.000-07:00

Today not my day. Seriously. Fucking suay. Anyway must thank min fei for dropping by today. Was damn shocked. To see him. Sigh. And saw shermaine. And bla bla bla. No mood to blog. Kena scolding from rany n bla bla bla. And bad news. I lost it. Dunno wat den too bad. All because of one fucking reason. thanks.

I got such nice collegues. But still, i got no mood to explain why.

Gotta go sleep or else tmr cant wake up. Meeting that dumb guy earlier. Dunno wat's his prob. Oh well. I better get sum slp nw. Im v sick of thinking so much. Nw just concentrate on my fucking projects first. Tues got company dinner. After that Dom they all going club. Ha. See how bah. Like that must stay grandma hse liao. Mon den sae. Pictures.

Oh i hate the way i sit.

She proposing to me?

Me the photographer.

Talking to tpt

cAndids

Nan pulling my hand. Kena bully

Juvone n me

2007-07-06T20:10:00.000-07:00

Went to sch as usual. After sch. Go collect psp games. Pay extra $20 . Fuck. Come home. See something. Make me damn irritated. Dunno wat .. thinking. Or what wan do. Ha. Dun understand? Too bad. No mood. Gonna blog in my private blog. Pissed. Thinking. Yah. Have fun. CB.

2007-07-05T21:58:00.000-07:00

I BOUGHT MY PSP!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LAAAAAAAA LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Costs like 490 bucks. HAHA. POCKET GOT HOLE LIAO. Gonna collect my new baby tmr! HAHA. Shit. SCHOOL finishes at at 5? WTF. STILL NEED GO BEDOK LIBRARY BORROW BOOKS! WAHLAOOOOOOOOOO. By the time alrdy wat time liaooooooooooo!!! Ahhhhhhh! Sad sad sad. Oh and i tink i wun have the time to do my project liao! HAHA. Shiok ah.

Sorry spencer darling. U got ur hp baby , ur dota baby, your gb baby. And i have my psp baby! =) Fair fair ok? No, actually not. You got 3! I only got 1! =(( But dun worry. You still number 1. =D

Cant wait to collect my psp games tmr. Love it love it love itttttttttt.

2007-07-05T18:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to my darling house. Reached at about 1. Or 1 plus den slack alllll the way till 10. Aiyo. Actually want go home at 8 de but ah, .... i miss darlin so much. Somemore so rare can see him. Ate with his family . His father so funny lor. Always go there then want talk to us. Haha. Then tok until around 9 plus. Then go in darling room and.. enjoy. The room atmosphere. HAHA. Then after that darling give me taxi money go home. Aiyo. Silly boy. Then he so sweet send me down tk taxi. Wear the shirt and cap. LOL. So cute. Like one small boy. =) Today go school damn fucking sian. I beginning to hate fucking poly life. Wwent to the amk library wan find my fucking research books but dun haf. WTF! Angry la. Dunwan blog liao. Damn pekchek.

Dumb darlin dunwan tk foto lor.

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2007-07-03T19:25:00.000-07:00

Today went school as usual. Boring boring boring. Freaking unhappy day for me. So like .. yah. Dun feel like blogging.

Ohhh look who's that! Baby! I didnt noe u so popular in my school!

I ate this for lunch. Didnt really eat lah. Only 2 mouths? Cause the food sucks and it stinks! Yuckyyy! Dont evefr eat from this stall again! Wwaste $$

2007-07-02T20:33:00.000-07:00

Okay. Work was okay yesterday. I enjoyed myself. Sat we got ALP. Freaking boring ah. Sibei lame. After that miss natasha order pizza we all share. Okay lah. then after that play number game. Loser must eat the food finish. I stayed for awhile den go work. I was damn shag at work. Leg damn cramp. Somemore laoda dun let me go for break. Maybe shop too many ppl le. Too bz. After work i str8 away go home and bathe and all. Including talking to baby. Then too tired le so go slp.

Next morning was sunday. I woke up at 8. Then go work. I was a few minutes late. Then smoke with pat, and laoda. After that pat n hashima went in shop so left me n him alone to talk. Then after that we open shop and changlin and chee kian came. They late. Oh yah, and chris. Then after that we open shop and chiong sales. I hate chee kian lah. Seriously sia. Cant stand him. Then nvm, full shift ppl supposed to go for break first. But he like purposely ah, go break first. Cb one lei. Somemore go so long. Fuck sia this kind of ppl. Angry lor! Then after that me and chris go break. Darlin called me and talk talk. At forst i tell chirs i wan eat kfc. Then i changed my mind sae wan go food court den changed my mind again sae wan go kfc. He ah, sae now den he noe why ppl sae girls all so fickle. Lol.

After that we go back work. Ley long like crazy. LOL. freaking funny. Then tok to changlin. At long last. Cause sat paiseh tok to him. Then liddat lor. Then after that alex, chris and changlin like.... damn pervert ah. Haha. Still saei pervert. Aiyo! Then at night we hit the 12k target. Dom treat us eat ice cream. YIPPIEEE. Then i eat until whole mouth den the stupid changlin still push my face inside the ice cream den my hand all kena ice cream. Then he wipe my mouth for me. So weird. Then after that me, him n dom go tk mrt. Changlin taKE same side as me. Haiyo. I like damn lazy to blog every single thing and detailed ah.

Today iwas late. I supposed to wake up at 8 but i woke up at 830 cause my sis like go off my fucking alarm ah. Wahlao. Cb one. MAke me so angry.Then i cannot put make up lor! Sick right. Then go sch w/o make up. Then yah. Like that lor. Today darling called me and shujuan they all keep saying.. HaHA. Dun tell u what she say. LOL. =) Then got a long day at sch ah. Sian. 2 test papers are out.Cmsy got A WDS got B. Thats all.

piCtures.

2007-06-29T18:01:00.000-07:00

I just came home. Today slept like mad. Alll the break i slept. Damn shiok ah. Hmm, someone told me sth abt me today and i was kinda affected by it. The sumone said : u talk damn rough ah like boy leh! Can talk gentler anot ah. Behave like one boy."

For a moment i was surprised ah. And i thought. Maybe, its time to change. My attitude, my behaviour. I shouldnt talk so much. HA. Hopefully u ppl will get used to it. Oh well. I think im closing this blog pretty soon. I dont have any more mood to blog like before. Bye peeps.

2007-06-29T08:11:00.000-07:00

I talked to darling till like almost 2 yesterday. Today woke up at 6.10. Damn tired ah. Slept in bus. Hmm. Now in school.
I miss him.

2007-06-28T20:10:00.000-07:00

This feeling came true. It's horrifying. He wanted to leave me yesterday. Sigh. Yeah, anyone who has feelings will know how it feels. I didnt get to sleep until 6.45 am. And woke up at 7. SO like i only got 15 mins of sleep? Then go school lor. Slept during break. Was freaking tired. Sorry ah, dun really have the mood to blog. Daddy fetch me home today. So nice.

Go home slept for awhile and darlin called me. I kind of like ruin the mood ah. And everything is like so different. I thought we could maintain this relationship. Somehow, i know sth is wrong. Well, i'm exhausted. I'm trying to do what i can le. Oh well. It takes 2 hands to clap.

Sunday work full shift. Sure damn tired. Ah i hate life.

2007-06-27T22:59:00.000-07:00

Today i went to school as usual. Kind of moody. I don't noe, just got this feeling. Brother knows. I guess he's the only one who i can share almost everything with, openly. Sigh. I love brother. He understands what i'm going through. I skipped lecture so i sat alone in canteen waiting for the others to come out. Then slack awhile jiu go back class.

Then after class i took bus 69 to brother hse. He teach me the way there. Then reach le i saw his FAT dog. LOL. So cute lei. So fat. I also wan! Then he bring me to his room. Wah, the first thing i saw his com. So full of things. Then his room on air-con. Brother like pig lo still wan sleep. Ahhh, k la k la not pig, cause someone slept at 7? Then i used his com a while. Go online. Used friendster. Then do my visual lit. Dumbo shane sae wan help me draw in the end steal all my ideas. GRR! Then we sing song, record songs. Then yah.

I damn enjoyed myself today. Brother got 2 dog. Both soooo cuteee lor. Played with them and yeah. Then brother wanted show me another of his hamsters but it was gone. He was damn sad. I know. Brother cheer up k? Still got sister. Sigh. Then i went back to msn. Got a little sad. I mean. Yah lah. Brother ask me dun emo. Somemore dare to on emo songs lor! Purposely leii! Then he prepare food for me to eat. Yum yum! So nice lahh hee! Then we share the food and have somemore fun and he took a damn long time to prepare himself ah. Worse den girl lei! Aiyo!

Then after that i go see him play his electone. So nice lahh. I so envy him. Compared to my playing... LOL. No hope le. AFter that we left the house and took bus 22 tgt. He told me many stuffs. I guess it's true. Sigh. Then took bus he alighted first. Then i sat all the way to amk inter. Meanwhile, he smsed me. =) I today then found out that shane is really a goooooood and excellent brother. Really appreciate him alot. He try so hard to be there for me. Then in the bus i kept thinking of stuffs. Couldnt get to sleep. Liliang called me, ask me wanna meet or not. So i reached amk go meet him.

He was with his fren. And we go find job. Too bad, no luck. Then after slack awhile jiu go home le. Sigh. I miss him. And of cause my dear shane. =) Nights peeps. I love u all.

2007-06-26T22:34:00.000-07:00

I'm back home! So tired can. No mood for anything. I'm going to brother's house tmr. See hamsters, slack and do homework? I hope i can finish. But most probably not. Cause i have like 100 of pictures to draw and i have absolutely no ideas! I'm dead laa. And tomorrow i must bring one big file so extra lor. My classmates sure ask me bring for what one.

Anyway, i hate sun. Yeah, that's right. I fucking hate that faggot. Ah well, he's the STUPID one and he's a fucking basturd. Aand i'm very sure i'm not the only one who hates him. He's a sucker, a loner, a pathetic asshole. BUT i dont pity him at all. I'm never gonna talk to him again. Irritating shit.

Don't have the right mood today. Oh wells, i tink i go off first. See ya guys.

2007-06-26T15:44:00.000-07:00

Oh wells, i'm like in school now. Skipped lecture just now so got to get up at 1? But.. I'm not one so i woke up at 12. Then go record my mummy voice. Practically screaming myself at home. Feel so weird. HAHA. But who cares? I'm done with the PRSP thingy. Finally. Then slack ahwile den go bateh and make up and choose clothes. Wah, today change and change and change clothes non stop. Dont know what to wear. But i made up by mind by wearing the purple dresss with a black top inside. Aiyo. Cant find my tights so i didnt wear it.

I was walking to the interchange. Oh, i meant reached the interchange and i realised something. I forgot my ez-link card. I ran back ALL the way home! Was seriously sweating like mad. Then go home take my ez-link and took bus instead of walking to the interchage. Darling called me and he talk to me for about half an hour. Then someone want be good boy. Got to hang the fone. Good boy my ass laaa. Good boy dont get horny and talk about horny stuffs all the time. K darling? HAHA!

When i reached school, i see everyone doing their prsp. Wahlao and i didnt do my storyboard. sian lor. Then rush everything and i just hand up the project. Guess what, i haven complete something. But i lazy to ask teacher. So... Yeah... Im gonna fail this.

2007-06-25T23:09:00.000-07:00

Freaking shag day. Woke up early and the first thing that came to my mind is skip school. My eyes were freaking swollen. So ugly can. Then no choice still got out of bed and bathe evrything lor. Then go school So tired but couldnt get to sleep on the bus. Then darling called me and talk for awhile. =)

Whole day didnt feel good. Felt like vomiting. Thought it was motion sickness but, it lasted for the whole entire day. Ah, maybe its just some gastric flu. Oh well, morning we did our wds and miss natasha gave out our proposals. One by one. I chat with my darling online. For while den went off for cmsy lecture. As usual, didnt understand a single shit. Waste of my fucking time. JY kept disturbing me by kicking my chair! &%&% MEAN!

After that went off for break. I drank the hot dessert. Cause didnt feel like eating. Then talk about some stuffs. OPEN. haha. Then slack until go cmaths lecture. Sian lor. Everyone sleeping. Then after that break again. We go bookshop buy disc. And envelop for project. Then darling called me again and he was sleeping! PIG! Went back for WDS lab after that. I was the last to leave after lesson cause i wa slaggin behind need to ask miss natasha. Sun and joseph wait for me. So sweet right.=) Miss Natasha gave back my proposal. I got a B-. Haha. So unexpected. Then asked about my term test and she said i passed. Aiyah sure get those just pass one? LOL! This one expected one. Then after that joseph pei me go pay bills and we went to library toilet. Then wait for me and left togther to take the bus.

While waiting, we talk alot of stupid craps lah. LOL. Then that joseph ah, keep pinching my face. GRRR! On the bus also! Aiyo! Then he alight first and i took the bus back alone myself. Tried to sleep again but just couldnt get back to sleep. Oh well.

I just asked brother for help for my prsp thingy. I LOVE HIMMM SOOOO MUCH! Thanks brother! You got the nicest voice ! Next time meet up. I owe you one! =) Aanyways, skipping lecture tmr. WHOO HOO. CAN GO SCHOOL LATE LOOO!

P.s. I'm still having those fucking headaches which goes on and on for days. Argh! And i'm like feeling damn terrible and horrible right now. Killl meeeee! I feel really terrible. GOD. My head fucking hurts and my stomach is like feeling damn uneasy. H-E-L-P. Edited at 12.35 am

2007-06-24T20:11:00.000-07:00

I've been yawning non stop for the past few hours. Oh man, i'm exhausted. Totally. I don't have the mood to do anything. Eat, play, do work, pack bag. I just feel like sleeping. zzz

What's worse is that this feeling is coming back again. Sigh. It sucks. Maybe it's because i'm too tired. And has affected my mood and stuffs. Argg. Save me. Someone. The feeling is terrible.

2007-06-24T18:22:00.000-07:00

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2007-06-24T16:11:00.000-07:00

Happy 2nd month baby! Argh it sucks, as i can't spend time with you again! Ah, nevermind, got many many more chances. =) So like yeah, yesterday i was awake till 4? Cause waited for darling to call me. But his mother came in and asked him whether he was using the fone so he had to hang? LOL. Then after that use his hp call me back. Aiyo! After talking for 7 mins den he use his hse fone call me back. Then say talk for a little while become 1 hr plus. Haha. Then like told him some stuffs ah. And he was laughing and laughing. So mean lor someone. Next time dont tell you liao! Hmphh!

Then talk talk talk and i started to get stressed cause tomorrow gonna start school already. Sigh, it sucks. Can't get to see darling in school anymore! Work, school, work, school. I won't have so much time to spend with my boy le. ='( Yesterday play msn games with darling. Haha. So lame lor some games. And then isketch. And then chat and chat lor.

Woke up at 9 today cause need to meet lenon, edward and sharina at bugis. I reached bugis mrt at 10? Supposed to meet at 1030. Seee i'm such an early bird. I called darling for like 2 times and msg him and called him for the THIRD time den he answer. Aiyo! So pig lei! And i think he dreaming lor. Dont even know whether he knows i even called him. Must be dreaming. I go withdraw cash and top up ez-link and wait wait wait. Lenon came first and was talking while waiting for the other 2 to come. Then he was like talking damn loud. Lol! So paiseh leii! Must keep reminding him to quieten down. After awhile edward and sharina came and we went to eat. At a foodcourt. I didnt feel like eeating but in the end i still ate. So pig lor me. Then after that we proceeded to simlim square. Oh yah, before that, go mac buy ICE-CREAM! LOOOKK! So fattening. Edward was like laughing at the way i eat. GRR!

Then at simlim square we took almost all the brochures and shop shop and i saw this laptop damn nice damn stylo. Damn worth it. But i called mummy and she said CANNOT BUY! Dun waste $$$! AHHH, My mood changed lah. Then nevermind. We walk walk walk den wan go in a shop then the alarm ring. Wah, scare me i dont dare go in lor. Then they pull me in. Haha. So funny. Keep saying "I dun wan lah! I dun wan! I say i dun wan!" But in the end, still went in wat.

After that i felt like buying PSP. The pink one. Cost about $300. So i asked mummy again and she said "TOO COSTLY" Then i keep arguing with her den she angry sae dun tok to her since i so stubborn. Sigh. I want it mah. Buy myself also cannot meh? Everytime also like dat onee. =( Then after that we go nearby and slack and discuss about the project and then after all done, we went home. Me, edward and sharina take bus. Then edward so gentleman lor wait for the both of us. =) What a good classmate i have. Then reach home le and slack awhile lor.

2007-06-23T19:54:00.000-07:00

Both winners. LOL!

Look at baby's drawing! CAMEL!?!? HAHA!

OKay basically, i woke up at 12 cuz darling called me. I remembered i told him my dream den talk awhile jiu hang le den i went back to sleep. Yesterday talk to brother for about an hour and he also got his own problems. Sigh. After that darling called me and yeah. Talk until 4 den hang up le.

Today wake up and slack only lor watch tv n play com. Then darling wanted to play his game so i wait for him play finish his game le den chat lor. Someone today very good. Play isketch with me. =) So happy lor. People suspect we cheating lah. LOL. Somemore nick like same same one. Kissmyass and kissmybutt. LOL! Then haven draw finish den guess the answer le. We like share answers through msn. So funny lor. Then got this idiot sae i should mind my nick. Idiot lor! Then after that i kick someone out of the game cuz the person keep saying we cheat. GRR. So irritating lor.

After that bathe and eat and chat with my darling. =) Oh yah today i good girl do housework! =)

2007-06-23T01:43:00.000-07:00

LOOK WHO'S THE WINNER! HA!

2007-06-22T22:52:00.000-07:00

It just seems so unfair. Biasness. I don't know why i'm feeling this way either but it's just so obvious. My mum is basically picking on me everytime she has the chance to. It's like i have to use the computer for my fucking project and she claims that i don't wanna let my sister use. Wtf.

Said: The com is NOT only for 1 person to use. It is to SHARE. Why you never ask your sister to lend you!

So sarcastic can. Damn irritated. This is not the fucking first time. I'm getting sick of all her shit. Say already still nevermind. She purposely close the fucking door. She and her beloved daughter, sherrie soh. So sweeet! Awww. Don't even wanna talk or speak to me.

Nevermind. I'll get used to it. Anyway i'm gonna start my fucking work and school. Gonna be damn stressed up and busy. Better. And one day i'll just breakdown. WHOO. Hopefully.

P.s. Somehow, i feel that everything is slowly changing. It's gonna happen someday. Sigh.

2007-06-22T16:38:00.000-07:00

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I just watched the 200 pounds beauty. The show was touching. Nice show. Sigh. My darling is in a not-very-good-mood. So he like didnt want to talk to me. But, well, i hope he feels better. Miss natasha talked to me on msn this afternoon. Asked me to send regards to him. Then i send her the youtube thingy to watch. She said she kena scared. Haha. =P

Then after that i proceeded to watch my 200 pounds beauty. Drank milo. After that i went to bathe. Smoked a stick in the toilet. After which, forced myself to puke the stuffs i drank and ate. Was feeling terrible. But yeah, the feeling was good. After emptying everything. Legs were wobbly, eyes were watery and nose was running. I hate my figure.

So now, i have to focus on my alice project. Haven't been doing it for the past few days. Didnt have the concentration. Ahhh, alice is making me irritated. It's like i have the idea buti can't execute it out. Cause i'm a noob who knows nuts about alice. I guess i better get along with it now. I won't have the time to do so otherwise. Bye peeps. Will update soon. Later!

p.s. I hate my figure!

2007-06-21T23:42:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the lame nick. HAHA. BUT who cares?! Im the winnerrrrrrrr! WHOOO HOOOOOOO!

2007-06-21T17:31:00.000-07:00

Okay. I am a person who thinks alot. So maybe sometimes i get irritated and stressed up for nothing. Darling talked to me yesterday. Felt so much better when i talk to him. But felt quite irritated when i talked to him at first. Sorry baby! Couldnt control my emotions. Then brother was like talking to me on msn. Teared. But after a while i was okay. Ohhh look look look , i sound so emo! AIYO! Darlin say he want go ireland! Sigh. But i'll support him in whatever decisions he make..

Then about 3 am we slept. Darling sound so dead. Haha! Then said goodnight and all. Brother smsed me. and i guessed he was feeling uncomfortable. Haiz. Sorry ah bro. Couldnt pei you ytd. But i'll promise i'll always be there for you. Call me anytime when u need someone to talk to ok. =)

Oh well, darling called me in the morning. And told me going out le. I was sleeping ah. HAHA. Then after that i went back to sleep and woke up at 2. Then went brush teeth when darling called me. Aiyo. Wrong time. Thenwent online to chat with him. But someone like playing his game ah. So... ha..

I went to do my "stuffs". And talk to brother lor. SO funny. =) Talked about some stuffs lor. and he started sending me files. LOL! Then darling suddenly call me and told me he was damn fucked up. Haiyo eh darling ah, always like that. But when you make things happen, you haf to face it. Okay baby? Anything i'll also be here for you one. Just dont go make things worse. Try to control your temper.

Sigh. I'm bored.

2007-06-20T22:23:00.000-07:00

Oh i didnt get to sleep in the afternoon at all. I couldn't sleep. So i went back online again. Wwent to interchange to meet mummy and off we went back home. Played the com for a little while and proceeded to watching tv. Sigh. I dont have any mood. I feel irritated. Several reasons. I hate school, i hate work. Mummy told me im not supposed to work on weekdays, but in-charge confirm wont allow that. I'm stuck between these 2. Feeling damn fucked up. Plus, projects and all. I'm afraid i cant cope. It's bothering me.

I lost focus in everything i was doing today.. I'm not trying to be emo or something, but yeah. I just can't help it. Maybe.. I should just live one day to another and not think about stuffs. Maybe..

I hate this feeling i'm having now. I just feel like breaking down. Sigh.. ='( I hope nothing bad happens.

2007-06-20T14:36:00.000-07:00

I slept at nai's hse ytd. Cause went to meet darling at his house. I woke up at 1130 and slack awhile. Darling never call me when he wake up. =( So bad lor someone. Then after that i left the house around 12 plus or 1. Then walk to the bus stop. Just nice the bus came. So yeah. I took the bus and got this group of bengs and lians freaking irritating. On music so loud nvm, somemore on techno. Make th ebus so noisy. Then the girl so hiao one lor. Irritating. Then after reach pasir ris interchange, changed bus and went to darling house there. Lost my way cause i forgot where to alight. But managed to find my way after all. =/

Then i reach his house le press doorbell and his mummy opened. So i went inside and tok to darling lor. Then do my alice for 1 hour and gave up. Very irritating lah the alice thing. ARGG. Then after that go darling room and smoke a while den lie on his bed. Wah really feel like sleeping lor. Then someone ah, wanna wake me up. -.- Then............. =)

Then after that go out do alice again and after that go in the room again den his daddy knock on the door say cannot off the light. After a while, he ask we 2 go out. Both of us kena lecture. Then hor, darling keep on look at me and laugh so i also buey tahan lah den i also laugh lor. Like so rude lei! Aiyoh! Darling ah! Then he started talking about the future and all, scared we do funny things. So asked us not to close the door in future and stuffs like that. Haha.

After that darling's parents left and we eat a little bit den went back to his room. Close the door. LOL. Aiyo. Then dunno who smoke again lor. Say dunwan smoke but still smoke. Dunno hu ah? HAHA. Then after that...................... Im not continuing.

I went home around 1030 and nai make soup for me. Then after that give me money ask me buy thing or food for myself and sister. So nice lah my nai. Anyway i tried calling mama ytd but she off her handphone. Wonder what happened to her. Haiz. Then talked to weixiong on fone for some time and he started to get all dramatic again so we hanged up. After that darling called me and we talked till 5 plus am . After that dozed off to slp. zzzz.. Morning jamie maid come nai house and wake me up. Then i eat fruits den left the house. Wwait for the stupid bus damn long. Irritating lor. Then while in the bus, darling called me and tok for 12 minutes and he gotta do his stuffs. Then i reach amk le go buy my contact lens and all den go home.

2007-06-18T18:32:00.000-07:00

I look at myself and i feel so disgusted. Spoils my mood, spoils everything. I hate my figure, i hate my everything. I'm seriously going on a diet. I've already put on so much weight. I hate it! I feel damn irritated. Why?!?! It's so unfair. Can't i just be like those who eat and eat and never grow fat. Unfair. No eating heavy meals. I swear. From today onwards. Morning: Milo Afternoon: Bread Night: Milo. I hope i lose weight by having this planned meal. =/

2007-06-17T21:14:00.000-07:00

Fuck all these shit. Just when i wanted to start onj my projects, i couldnt even manage this fucking thing. Ask people, all also dunno. Dunno lah. Im not doing my project already. Seriously come to a point wherei give up. not gonna touch the fucking thing. Hate school. I hate projects. Argh.

Fucking sister is another problem. CB. Had a bad fight with her. My arms like hurting lah. Bitch. Seriously damn fucked up lah. Fucking bad day. KNNBCCB. $#*%^%%#$%#*. Just feel like breaking down. I hate THIS FUCKING FEELING.

2007-06-17T19:50:00.000-07:00

Today woke up at 12.30. Mummy came in and used the pillow hit me. LOL. Then after that went for lunch at the nearby coffeeshop and then headed home. Then after that darling called me but i was in the toilet. -.- I came out le i slack and lie down on bed and waited for him to call me back. But i was slowly drifting to sleep.. ZZZ.

After a while darling called! So we talk talk lor then i needed to do housework and had to hang the phone. Then go clean my room, then vacumn ther whole house. After that mummy ask me wash toilet! SO we 3 beauties so wash one small toilet. HAHA. All crammed up in that toilet. Then play water lor. So funny. So long nv play le. =) Then after that go bathe le den go down buyfood eat and yah. Back home at last. Im feeling damn tired. Anyway, photos of 15 June.

KFC

2007-06-16T20:48:00.000-07:00

Okayyy. Guess what? I talked to darling for 6 hours, 38 minutes and 20 seconds yesterday. =) So cool right. Haha. Then talked about alot of things and yeah. Talked till 635 in the morning. Darling is so sweet. I am so happy happy happpyyyyyyy. HAHA. I know we're gonna last Very Very Very LONG. haha. Dont care. Dont care. Dont care. Darling.. See hor! And rememberrrrrr! PLEASEEE! =P

Then after hang le he smsed me. I'm keeping that msg! And all your msges baby! LOL! Then morning i received a msg from him saying he need to go polyclinic. Ah, i feel so sad for him lahh. Only got 3 hours of sleep! Poor thing =( Then after that i went back to sleep until 3 pm. Darling called me and tok lor. Then he was like talking about ghosts? LOL. Naughty lah he. BAD! After that watch tv and talk awhile den msn awhile den i went to bathe and den went out for dinner.

Ate at bishan park there. A very ulu place and the food was expensive. I eat until want to vomit. Too full. HAH. Serving very big. Then after eat le i felt so so so tired, like now. And i really feel like sleeping. =/