YSunday, August 19, 2007
Yesterday he called me. Talked very nicely at first. But dont know why out of the blue quarrel again. Sigh. He cried. I didnt know what to do. Im sorry dar. I know, like you said, im not a good girlfriend. I treat you so differently all of a sudden. MAybe because i know, deep down inside, I dont love you. You know that too right. I try so hard, to treat u nicer. But it always turn out differently in the end.
I want to love you. But it seems that something else is stopping me. Something. Someone. Yes, i cant let go of the past. Its true. I know its very unfair for you. Im sorry dar. Please dont shed any more tears. Although i cant promise not to treat u this way again, but i promise, i'll try my best to maintain this relationship. Cause i know whats gone, is gone. He might already have someone new. I dont know.
You tell me you want to last long. I tell you i cant. The way we're going now.. Sigh. All i can sae now is im sorry. This post might a bit random but i've been thinking for such a long time. It's too unfair for you. Now, we'll just live one day to another. Seee what happens k?
Anyway, im gonna say goodbye to my ah lian hair colour. And my ah lian image. Black hair is back. =) Now, noone will call me an ah lian!! whoohooo!!~~~~~~~~
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