YThursday, August 23, 2007
I HAVE CREATED A NEW BLOG. PERSONAL BLOG. SORRY! :) DONT WORRY. SOMETIMES WILL BLOG HERE.
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YWednesday, August 22, 2007
AHHHH! Help! I've lost the motivation for study! Anyoneeee. Please please pleaseeeeeeeeeeee. Im fucking irritated. Mind my language but i'm seriously pissed off with exams and school life. Have been trying to study for the past few hours but not a single shit goes in my head. Brain's not workin.
Too many stuffs on my mind and i'm tired. I ate chocolates, ate a big packet of rice. 2 chicken wings, bread, and a can of bird's nest for my dinner. I can't be bothered with my throat anymore. =) I ate like a hungry gh*st. Oops. SHHH.
I know it all. =) But i'm still getting on with my life. Like the saying goes, if old want dont go, new one how to come? Haha. Oh wells. Time has it all. I have time. I wish i wish i wish. Sometimes, i feel it's sad. Why such things happen when i'm serious in a relationship. It's so unfair. And the next time round it's a different story. It's either i lose feelings first or the other party loses his first.
Why can't my relationship be a normal one. I lovehim, he love me. Last long. WHYYYYY!?!? unfair. Oh yah. I watched hi 5 today and guess what? Kathleen not in the group anymore. Got 1 girl called SUN replace her. Asshole. I'm not going to watch hi 5 anymore. =( Anyway my msn cant be used cause of some troubleshooting thing. So angry. It's adding "fuel" to my "flames". Okay nevermind. Restarting com right now. At this moment. Yes. =\
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I guess , time to move on. Cause he moved on already. Oh well. Gonna change my blog address for the moment. With effect from 27 aug. =)
Goodbye love.
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Went to see the doctor after all. And guess what. I was asked to go for further checkup. Dunno what possible throat cancer?!?! What bullshit. Just because my throat is fucking swollen doesnt mean i have cancer okay. Bloody hell. I'm not going for any shit checkup lah.
Anyway im very angry. Because...... I tell myself i will not give up. But i dont know when i can tell myself that until. Im very sick and tired le. No more nonsence. For now. I'll juz wait and see. Im going to face the harsh reality. Cause i have to. Goodbye ______. Goodbye _______.
I have gotten my retribution. Until now. It's killing me. ARGHHHHH!!! I wanna scream so loudly. but. Everyone sleeping. HA.
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YTuesday, August 21, 2007
Officially i've broken up with low jiahao. Ytd i wasnt so sure cause he smsed me again in the afternoon Today. He thought we were still together. So i thought, maybe try a few more days and see how. But i realised i shouldnt drag it. I am fully aware of my feelings for him. Its fading. He knows it too. So during cmsy revision class i smsed him and told him that my feelings fade already. Then he asked me why.
In the end i told him i wanted a break up. He got angry. Maybe disappointed. I dont know but i feel like i busted him. Then i smsed him and told him nt to reply and stuffs. Juvone dear also told me to leave this kind of people. Yes i agree. He's so useless. Ok mind my words but its true. Im not happy being with him. He's nt like a gentleman at all. He dont send me home, i have to send him to his busstop. And then he only cares about himself. What kind of bf is this? Even though its very late at night but i have to walk home all by myself. Through the empty and isolated path. Whenever i tell him stuffs, he just dont want to bother. He either says: aiyah nvm lah or huh den how?
When i tell him about my collegues. Always kena bully, he never even try to cheer me up. Only noe how to sae dun care dem la dun care dem la. So you see the reason why i wanted to end this relationship. I couldnt take it any more. Furthermore. Its not him whom i love. It has always been infatuation. Lasted only for a few days.
After which he smsed me again and said: I'm sorry. Can we dont break?
So i said: Whats de point of continuing a relationship when no feelings are involved?
He said: Issit you fall in love with another guy?
The rest. Juvone knows abt it lah. I did sms and told him the truth though. After cmsy we girls went to lab and print stuffs. They ah, very bad. Say i very fast find another bf! Nan sae 1 week? Then juvone say tonight?!?! And den the rest i forgot hu sae wat. Got 4 days lah .. LOL. wei wei wei. Girls ah, im not that.... HAHA.
In lab i told them about my feelings lor. They said someone else better will replace HIM(not jiahao for goodness sake). But i told dem i dunwan! ='( Very sad lah. But... I shant get emo. =) Live life to the fullest.
If only..
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I woke up and realised that my throat os KILLING me, I cant even open my mouth. Hurts like damn badly. I tink im gonna have a hard time eating. So yeah anyway i'm damn disappointed. Yes, there is a reason but it's a lil personal.
I had a horrible nightmare. Him him and him. He found a new girl and her name was MyName. LOL. I noe a little lame. Then saw him in the bus and was playing with his sister? LOL. Dunno why out of the blue he got a younger sister. So yeah. Then he left and someone else told me he was alrdy interested in another girl.
I know its all juz part of my "positive" thinking. I want to give up. But i cant.
One sided love.
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YMonday, August 20, 2007
Today early in the morning jiahao came to find me. So yea. Slack till 6 den he went home. I got so scared today. Cause. Why ah? Why guys all like to lie one. Whyyyyyyyyyyy?!?! Anyway i tink its the end for us. So like.. Yah. I got angry with him at a point of time when... So ididnt care him and went to slp. He slept too. Then sherrie came back and he call me wake up. Then she cook and den we eat. And then i send him to bus stop. And so bye bye. MAybe it will be the last tim eim seeing him i also dunno.
Its a good thing i didnt give in at all. Bye jiahao. Im sorry. 16 days with you. I hope i get my friends back. Now that you're gone.
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YSunday, August 19, 2007
Freaking tired. Exhausted. Im sick. High fever, sore throat and flu. Im supposed to be happy my bf's coming to see me for the whole entire day. But I'm not. Why why whyyyy? I feel like a fucking bitch. He knows i dont love him. Yet he still wants to be with me. Argh. Its like, he call or dun call me , sms or dun sms me, i also wun go and bother one.
Faded. Maybe this is the word to describe my feelings. Yes. Im certain of it. Im like wearing 2 layers of clothes, including my jacket. Shorts, and another layer of track pants. Freezing cold. Anyway. Im tired so cant blog. Next week is study week so whole week no sch. Also took exam leave so no work. Shiok. Nites people. Im tired.
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Yesterday he called me. Talked very nicely at first. But dont know why out of the blue quarrel again. Sigh. He cried. I didnt know what to do. Im sorry dar. I know, like you said, im not a good girlfriend. I treat you so differently all of a sudden. MAybe because i know, deep down inside, I dont love you. You know that too right. I try so hard, to treat u nicer. But it always turn out differently in the end.
I want to love you. But it seems that something else is stopping me. Something. Someone. Yes, i cant let go of the past. Its true. I know its very unfair for you. Im sorry dar. Please dont shed any more tears. Although i cant promise not to treat u this way again, but i promise, i'll try my best to maintain this relationship. Cause i know whats gone, is gone. He might already have someone new. I dont know.
You tell me you want to last long. I tell you i cant. The way we're going now.. Sigh. All i can sae now is im sorry. This post might a bit random but i've been thinking for such a long time. It's too unfair for you. Now, we'll just live one day to another. Seee what happens k?
Anyway, im gonna say goodbye to my ah lian hair colour. And my ah lian image. Black hair is back. =) Now, noone will call me an ah lian!! whoohooo!!~~~~~~~~
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YFriday, August 17, 2007
Im so freaking exhausted. Today went to school only for ONE lesson which is cmaths. Actually by right supoosed to have cmsy tutorial at 4. But me and shu juan decided to shop and not go. HAHA. She went to meet her bf. Today after cmaths we all went to decide on where to go then decided to go tamp first. Then yeah. Waited at bus stop for dian to come. Then when the bus finally arrived, juvone n sharina didnt board. We girls all so shocked. Not to mentioned a little pissed and angry. I mean, why so last min? Oh wells nevermind. Past already.
Then at tamp go eat. Then after that proceeded to suntec. HAHA. Wanted to buy donuts but the queue like freaking long ah. Today quarrel with him again. He shouted so loud at me. So i got pissed and shouted in the shopping centre. Ha. I mean, he's so unreasonable lah. Still dare to accuse me. So hot tempered. Argh. Now i really dunno le la. Always quarrel. We barely even started. Just 13 days. Because of mr low jiahao, i lost so many friends. They dont even bother to tok to me. Why? Sometimes i tink that i really made the wrong choice. What can i do? Im so lost so sad.
I still miss him. As in him. But. I guess it gone for good. Anyway let me continue. We went suntec and i go find hashima and deyuan at shop. AHah. Then walk wlak lor. Then kip on buying stuffs to eat. I spend so much lor. Die ah die. Fat also. HAHA. Then after that decided to shop for girl stuffs. HAHA. You noe what i mean. Me and shu juan bought a set. HAHAHAH. Oh my god i cant believe im saying this la.
Then the rest left for cmsy. So we continued to shop. Went to body shop and testing the eye shadow. But didnt buy in the end. Then took mrt home. She go her bf hse. I go home. Reach home le i str8 away slp. So tired lor. Then woke up and eat. Then received a call from shixian. Like so sudden. And he's such a bastard. Im serious. Argh. I really dunno wat he tinking lor. I cant say it out cause to personal. So yeah, I hate my life right now. If only time could be reversed.
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YThursday, August 16, 2007
Dar came to find me at amk. I reached earlier den him so i went home 1st. Then help mummy hang the clothes cause she's really sick. Then after a while dar sae he dwnstairs le. So i hurry pack and went off. Then we went to walk walk walk damn fucking sian. But nevermind lah. Time pass very very fast lor.
Then i told dar sth and he got very angry and pissed. I know his impression of me already changed, although he said it hasnt. Sigh. He got angry with me when i said sth off the limit and straightaway he let go of my hand. Im sorry. We didnt get to eat cause both of us no appetite. Went to the same old place to talk and slack.
I realised.. It's all infatuation. I dont know. My girls know. What im thinking right now. Heartpain. Its just too hard to let go. Sorry mr low jiahao. Give me some time. I'll try my very best to be your good gf. Try.
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Went to school as usual today. Woke up at 7. Then prepare le den go out. Then in sch vislit. So slack. Just do the journal only lor. So lame. Hahaha. Then after that go out with my girls to eat. Outside school Then talk talk talk. Hmm. The girls know my secret. Sigh. Being in a relationship really very hard. Esp now, in my plight. My girls know how i feel. Gave me some advices.
But yeah. Just have to live with it. So heartpain lor sometimes. HmMM. Now in sch lab. Go discuss project. Later my dar maybe come find me. Not sure. Then go liliang chalet.
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YWednesday, August 15, 2007
Today woke up at 9. Check whether mummy got go work. And YES she did. So i sms dar sae mummy go work. Then went back to slp. Around 9.50 he sms me sae he go home bathe everything le den come find me. I slept till 12 like that and was wondering why that boy nv msg me so i went to bathe le den after that call him. Ohh and he was already on the train. So i went to change and after that call him to tell him how 2 come my hse.
Then teaach teach teach until want die. Mr low jiahao so blur. HAHA. Then after thast finally he reached. =) So i went to open the door for him. And then i go make up. Suddenly, i heard the door open. :O It was my irritating sister. HAHA. she came back from camp. 3 day nv see her got PEACE. But when she come back, she keep on telling me storiesssssss. ARGGG. My dar wait inside my room for me. HAHA. Blow fan. That lazy boy. =) Then after i prepare le we went off. Go library return my books which i already date due so long. HAHA. Then walk like siao we both sweat lor. ahah.
After return le we went bus stop wait for bus 162. Then this uncle i tink he cheater la sae he no $$ take bus. Sae wan go tampines. He ownself got $5 den still sae nt enough. Asshole one lei. Then my dar so hao xin give him $. Wwah. So easy kena bluff lor. Dar darr. You too good alrdy la. Then we tk bus sit very long den reach fareast. While on the bus got these 2 baby. So cute la. We sit behind dem and play play play. HAHA. Then i sae i want sleep. That boy ah, dun let me slp! Sit until backside damn pain. Cause journey so long. After reach le went to LP. Go see my roster.
Then go cineleisure buy tickets. Watched 881. So after buy le we went to eat! Then eat le go walk walk and slack till 5.20 lor. Then inside the cinema sooooo small. HAHA. Squeeze like siao. Then .... Hahah. the movie wasnt so bad la. got people cry until very jialat i dunno y. I see le oso dun feel like crying at all. haha. Today got people approach my dar wor. The creative talent thing. AHAH. Wah that boy oso ppl wan ah? LOL. :X Then go walk walk.
After movie we went to tk bus to amk. Then collect my contact lens. Then slack. Walk walk walk. Slacked at SOMEWHERE. So hot lor. Then very scary. The place damn ulu den can hear very weird noises like people calling. I was damn fucking scared la i grab his arms like siao. Then walk damn damn damn fast. By the time we found seat alrdy sweating like mad. HAHA. Then... Yah. Slack lor. =))) Dar so cute. Esp when he paiseh dun dare face me. LOL. now i noe dar is a naughty naughty boy. TODAY. HAHA. Caught red handed. =P
Then after that jiu go home le. Then eat. And now i haven bathe.. So i am going to bathe le my sister want use com. That irriattin girl! I miss my boyfriend already. =( I must call him! BYEEEE!
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YTuesday, August 14, 2007
Finally , the day is gonna end. Todat go sch early and do java. Keith very nice lor. Help me with my project. Haha. Then do finish le so happy. Then got java test. Die. I got so many errors.
Today go follow mummy go see doctor. She sick tmr... And u noe wat it means. My dar cannot come my hse find me le!!!!!!Sigh. Sad. So maybe gg his hse find him. ahhhh. tmr dar calling mi after his prac to wake mi up. faster go find him. ahh.. if mummy nvr go work den he conme lorrr. whoooooooooo.
i toking to him. so blog tmr. ggoing to town. =) wait for my story ah. hahah
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YMonday, August 13, 2007
Today got presentaion. Damn shag. HAHAHAHA. Lame. Anyway toking to my dar on fone now. So no concentration. I realli cant wait for wed. My dar coming to meet me. Then next week whole week no sch. I everyday meet dar. He come find me. Work oso tk one week off. =) I miss him!
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Today worked full shift. Fucking tired. Then morning so slack. Then after that that asshole changlin keep on disturb me. Asshole. Really. Then break oso go with that fucker. So suay. He in store keep ask me off light and tap him to slp. So irritating. Still dare sae i owe him a goodbye kiss. Wtf. I very faithful to my mr low one hor. =)
Anyway today i gotta go homee arly caus emummy call me reach home by 11. Go pray. But.. Sth happened. Today cat want go home early and she told rany she wan sign out at 7. But rany dun allow her den still scold her until she cry. Wa make me so scared. I dun dare tell him i wan go home early liao lor. Then after that she go home le i go break with pat. Then tok tok. AHHA. Then smoke and tok smoke n tok. Today i smoke 10 sticks. Morning buy den at night finish le.
That changlin is a fucking asshole. He go open my bag take my stuffs w/o my permission lor. He tink i dunno. Bloody asshole. No privacy lor. Really so angry. In the end work work work den at 10 i ask rany to let me sign off then took bus. Got 2 guys sitting behind me make me damn fucking irritated.. They damn noisy den kip on kicking the chair. So irritated.
Come home den go dwn pray den started raining. Like..... Ahhh. Then after that come back bathe and call my dar. Tok for about an hour or so. Ytd i slept at 3 cause was toking to him for 2 hours. I miss him la. I cant wait to see him on wed. I miss my mr low jiahao! tmr gt presentation. damn sian.
2 more days to meeting my dar.
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YSunday, August 12, 2007
Went to work. Morning received sms from dar. Sy he wake up le. Then he pei me chat till i reach my workplace. Then i reach le still early so i called him. Hmm. Then go sign in le. Todat gt relieve staff. His name is Deyuan. Haha. I didnt tok to him cause i shy. Then during break, he same break as me den come in store with me and tok to me lor. Then actually want study de but keep on talking. So yahh. HAHA.
Then today guess who came to see me.. SHU JUAN! Thatttts righhhht. HAHA. I serving customers den she come in frm behind n poke my side. Wahh. Give me a shock. AHA. Then today reaalli a damn tiring day. Dunno why. I can close my eyes and work one. Rany today super hyper. Haha. Make me laugh non stop lor. So rare. Keep on dancing.
Then in the end all the morning shift ppl left. So left me, alex, dom and deyuan. Shiok ah . SUPER slack. Hahaha. Then deyuan tok alot le. Cause i keep on tokin to him. =) Then serve n serve lor. Actually thought dar wun sms me. Expected that la. But when closing that time, I receieved 2 smses from him! So damn ahappy la. He said he missed me. Wahh. I hope time passes fast fast la. I cannot wait already. =(
Afetr work, i sms dar and said i missed him too. Then he sae he go home and call me. So right now, im waiting for his callllll. And i tink im gonna slp soon cause tmr workign full shift. Idiot la. I tired liao. HAHA. Byeeeeeeeee.
3 more days before i can see Mr Jiahao.
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YFriday, August 10, 2007
I just hanged the fone with my wonderful boyfriend. Talk for an hour plus. =) Today really is damn suay day. I didnt UPLOAD my fucking WDS on time. I tot i could. But everything screwed up. In the end took a few hours to solve the problem. From 1o do until 8 lor. Wtf. Mon still got presentation. Sorry dar. Today call u show temper. =( Cause really very very very pissed off mah. Then so sad lor. Whole day miss my dear. Sad sad, wed den can see him. He's coming all the way to my hse pick me. So sweeeeeet.
I cant wait laaaaaa. I want seeeeeeee himmmmm. HAHA. Anyway got fucking work tmr. afternoon shift. Stupid changlin call me when i tokin to my dear juz nw. Spoiler. HAHA. I tink miting him tmr? Sian. dun feel like meeting. Super siann. He always late one lor. Anyway back to my wds thing. I damn pekchek. Then juvone they all trying to help. Then gt to noe this guy keith, which is juvone fren. He help me. At last can lor. I so happy. Then took bus home. Call my dar and tok to him awhile. Then in the bus fell asleep. Tpt called me. Tok tok. Aiyo dstrb my slp. I so tired. Reach home le. 1st thing is to call him. Tell him i reach home le. Then he ask me why so long bla bla bla. That loso king.
I go bathe everythingden called him. Tok la. I told him i want my bao bao. HAHA. Ahhh, Im so tiredddddddd. Oh yeah, caixiong finally expressed his feelings. But too bad, Im attached to my jiahao le! I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee him. Im happy today cause i heard what he really wants in this relationship. Im looking forward to it too. =))
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YThursday, August 09, 2007
I receieved quite a few smses yesterday while i was sleeping. But a pity one of the smses wasnt for me. I tink send wrong. Ha. Anyway. Let me talk about today. Im so happy. =)
Went to work in the morning. Worked half morning shift. Then dom sms me while i was in the train. I tink he lonely. Haha. Then ask me faster come. Then i reached le den tok cock with him. Opened shop. Super slack. Haha. Then i keep pestering him to let me off at 1.30, latest 2 cause meeting my dar. Then after that, at 145 like that dar come inside shop find me. But i haven finish work. But i was shocked when i see all his friends outside. Got about 6. And got 1 girl oso. So i told cat then she say dun go out with them lor since i so unfortable. Dom very nice, 2 .10 let me off. Then i go sign out with Cat. Then dar and his company all outside. I dundare walk over to them. So i call him sae i go pei cat eat. Then they went off play pool 1st. After eat le i call him then go down plaza sing find him.
I bully my dear. :x Then he wait for me at bus stop then walk very far! To the pool place. Then at there i not so paiseh le. Cause my dar so nice keep on pei me. Then after that i was comfortable le. Then we went to eat and i follow dar go draw $ and walk walk walk.. Go plaza sing with his friends then they play games. I so lazy so i keep on lie down on him. Haha. Then sit on his leg. While watching his frens play. Then after that we all go carpark smoke then walk walk den go suntec.
Actually wan watch fireworks but the place so crowded. Then there also so hot. My wonderful bf so nice. He keep on" My dear thirsty huh? Hot hot huh? Sayang lai. Later i buy water for u ok?" Then i keep on give the not happy face. Like wan to die liddat. Ha. Im so spoilt. Lucky got him to spoil me. :x Then in the end we bth so me n dar left 1st. Go walk walk at raffles. Then slack. Then after that go back amk. Still walk walk. Then in the end sit at amk central smoke n tok. Until 9 plus. Haha. Now i finally realised he's nt wat i tot of him. He explained everything to me le. =) Im so happy.
After that i wan pei him go tk bus. But he keep on dunwan dunwan. But i dun care! =) So pei him le den went off. Hmm. I meeting him on wed go watch movieeee. Happpyyy! =) I miss him already. Just an hour. Haiyo.
Finally, i learn to let go of the past. Its time to start anew. With him.
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YTuesday, August 07, 2007
Finally, today i talked to mr jiahao on the fone for half an hour? HAHA. That boy is coming down to my workplace on thurs. I finish work at 1.30. So after that we going out! =)) Hmm. Let me start from the start of my day.
Yesterday did my projects till like siao. Then got irritated. Was talking to a few ppl online. Haha. Anyway, spencer ah, dun keep playing your dota lah. Go get some sleep please. Wait you talk like want to fight like that. Aiyo. Ahh, he tink he's superman. =/
Ok let me continue. Then did projects but didnt do much cause was all the way online. Chatting with people. HAha. Then jiahao and caixiong keep on ask me go slp go slp go slp. I wanted to lah but had to do at least sth mah. So did ALITTLEBIT. and trust me, my little is really little. HAHA. Then went off to slp!
Morning went to school early. Go do project but didnt really did much either. Wwas a waste of time. When it was time to go for prsp lecture, we all suddenly felt hungry so we decided to eat instead of going lecture. HAHA. I SAW JOJO!!! WHOOO. JOJOJOJOJOJOJOJOJOJO~ My heart beat super fast i dont know why. But he waved at me so i waved back. HA. =X
Then eat le we went to lab to continue on our stuffs lor. After that go prsp lab. Caixiong say he want fetch me home AGAIN. Then i was like dunwan lah. Then he sae he wait for me after sch. His class finish at 4 while mine at 5. So he waited for about 1 hr and 10 mins for me. Hmm. Still say he need to go amk lor. I tink he liar liar de. HAHA. So after lab i went to IT carpark to meet up with him. Then we took his bike. Wah, today the wind so strong. Then my hair keep slapping my face. Super pain.
Then we reach in about 20 mins. Slack under my hse here. Tok until about 7. Talk abt his tattoos. He super crazy lah. Put so much. Then he sae he regret so ask mi dun put. Wait i regret also. =( Then i went home. Called jiahao. =) Pei him tok tok. He so funny lor. He say: Today got go home with boy huh? Better dun ah wait i come catch you. Dun let me catch hor. .... Bla bla bla.
After that mummy came home so i hang the fone. While she bathing i go call him again. Sad sad. he wan slap my face. HAHA. =P Anyway im miting him on thurs! But he sae he wun let me go home at 10!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dun care. Im gonna bite him. Until he cry ah. =)) ANYWAY im off to do my projects le.
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YMonday, August 06, 2007
HAHA. My laopo say my blog like life story. Every single detail also blog. =p Anyway yeah. I should cut down on my blogging. Dont tell grandma story le. =) Anyway, today went to sch. Caixiong actually want fetch me but in the end he couldnt make it. So i went to school myself.
Then yeah, i reach school den go lecture and all. Break 2 hrs so we girls went out to eat. After that went for lessons. After that caixiong sae he waiting for me at library. Then i go meet him and stuffs. Anyway thx dian, juvone and the people who helped me in my wds today. I love u all. =) HAHA. Then after meet mr bear then we go his bike there and took 15 mins to discuss where to go. Then at last decided to go bishan. Hmmm. Then at there slack lor. Eat ice cream. Then he keep on laugh at me, Cause i eat until whole mouth. So embarassing. I used the whole tissue . Then at there tok tok. Sms mr jiahao. =)
Then at 8 o clock lidday we left. Took his bike he want go pump petrol. Ha so funny. Shhhh. I know you know. caixiong. =))) Then after that he fetch me homeeee. Again. So sweet. AHHAAH. Ok watever. Then i reach home mummy all nt at home. Hmmm.
Sometimes, for instance, now. I feel like a total bitch. I swear. I'm sorry ______, I'm sorry ________, I'm sorry _______. ahh, oh well.
p.s. Jiahao made me kind of pissed off today. He liar liar pants on fire. I really dont know what he thinking. Then he still dare sae i fierce. Hmph. After that ask me tok back sweet sweet. Thick skin. Make me angry still ..... Haha. Anyway things are going well. =) W.y.b.b. W.y.q.q. W.y.n !!!!
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Fuck projects. Fuck this klement guy. Fuck sch. Fuck fuck fuck.
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then its juz too bad that ur using web
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Eh im hungry. Can i eat you? says:
cause imsorry to tell u u came to tok to me at the wrong time
- [[ κιемелτ ]] • im your motherFUCKING PRINCE [ қrz ] © ™ says:
then its just too bad that u are feeling irritated as well
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Eh im hungry. Can i eat you? says:
Oh ? Thats too bad.
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Eh im hungry. Can i eat you? says:
I tink i should block u
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° Eh im hungry. Can i eat you? says:
BYE.
And after that, he sent me a frenster msg.
oh well blk then.thanks for doing so. u aint even pretty for me to even bother u are irritated or not. go look urself in the mirror
u are nobody to pple to care for anyway. ;)
And so i sent him back:
Oh wat a joke. You are not at all handsome btw. I hope u know that. Or should i sae I WISHED you knew that. HA. You desperate asshole. And did anyone mentioned it to you that your english really sucked? I think you need to buck up on it. Oh well, Good bye you poor little thing.
He replied:
' ' k l e ment wrote:> at least i look better than you. trust me. HAHAAAA u look totally like shit. ;)
I replied:
LOL? You moron. How can you compare yourself to a girl? Ahh, wat a sad life you've got. I look like shit? You look like dump. HA. Now stop all these childishness you old man.
TATA. And there there there, i blocked him on my friendster.
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YSunday, August 05, 2007
Went to work. That bird never sleep. Then dstrb me early in the morning. :x Haha.. Anyway woke up and then go prepare everything. Then took bus to MRT. then spencer called me. HAHA. He crazy one no nid sleep. Haha. Then he pei me tok until i reach shop. Then dom they all keep saying so early i dstrb ppl!?! AHHH? Then me, chang lin, pat, alex and ck outside shop smoke. Then dom so poor thing. HAHA. I sit down den zao geng den dom sae: Wah, early in the morning want let ppl tong coins inside ur pants." HAHA.
They all ah, bully me. Then open shop den we all so slack sia. Then work work work then i go break with changlin. Cause he wan go break with me. AIYO. But rany let him go 1st. Then he so nice wait for me go tgt. Then we went eat le den slack. Then go in store. Actually wan slp. BUT, That idiot slp on my lap. SO i didnt get the chance to slp lor. Ha. Oh yah, anyway. Ck, dom n alex went to break tgt and they like went for 2 hrs ah? So exagerrating right. Wwahlao. Wwe all so pissed lor. Rany asked me to extend till 10 lor. Wah make me scared, cause caixiong meeting me at 8 mah. So i said cannot lor. Hmm.
Work till eight plus. Then rany let me sign off. Had a smoke with alex. Then caixiong came. HAha. He look so different from the fotos. He look so much younger. Like a cute boy boy liddat. Then after awhile alex go off le so me n caixiong go to his bike there at cine. Then so paiseh. I dunno how 2 wear the helmet. HAHA. caixiong is sooo nice. He buy for me sweet sweet. HAHA. Okay, i sound like a pathetic small girl. =(
Then tk his bike. He ask me kiap my legs to him den my jeans too tight. So i keep on complain complain and screaming. HAHA. Then off we went.. So shiok. I love sitting on his bike. But the prob is i dunno where to put my hands. LOL. If i dun hold him i scared i fall down. But if i hol dhim, will feel so werid. But safety comes first la. =D haha. Then we on bike keep on toking. I ask him to put one tv at his meter there. HAHA. Or behind his helmet so i can watch next tym. LOL. so lame right me.
Then we reach amk le go sit sit smoke smoke. Then tok tok. Then after that he send me homeee again. Sent me all the way outside my doorstep, Oh nt really dorrstep but the life there. =) Caixiong. Xie xie ni!!!!!!! Tmr meeting up with him after school. He's gonna send me home. This time better nt wear the jeans again. HAHA. Hmmm. ANYWAY. ytd tok to that big baby. Haha. Who ah? Spencer? do u noe hu im toking abt? HAHA. Then sms jiahao. Then he asked me.... AHHH? Okay. Shhhh. The liddat lor. I feel so weird. Hmm. I don't know. I should give myself more time. Maybe, maybe, its really time to let go of the past. I dont know. A few more days for me to go tink abt it. I'm so stressed up with stuffs.
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Went to Bishan Junction 8 to relief today. Hmmmmmm. Morning rany call me. i tot i dreaming. So i woke up and call back shop. And yes, i supposed to to J8. So i go prepare evrything. Called that piggy caixiong to wake up cause he ask me give him "morning" call. Then left hse. Took the life and realised i have forgotten to take my wallet! AHHHH! So went back and just nice mummy they all leaving hse. So after tk wallet, den left hse tgt. Then when i walking to bus stop, mmummy sae uncle wan fetch me go central lor so i said ok lor.
Then who noes, he go inside carpark. The carpark was so full. And it was alrdy like, 1.28 PM. I supposed to reach J8 at 1.30 PM. Then kanchiong lor. I ask uncle stop den i ran all the way to mrt. Then run to the mrt train. Was panting like siao. Then reach le felt like one small little lost baby. I dunno anyone from there. Then sign in i stand behind all by myself. Then the staffs come tok to me. HA. After a while, i started to talk to dem. Then talk talk talk.
Wadi is the in-charge. He look so cute. HAHA. Then yeah, work lor. I was the 1st to go break. Then go buy cake eat. Then caixiong call me. Cause i daamn bored. That spencer ah, bluff me. Say he go out alone. Liar liar pants on fire. =P HA. Then at j8 no place to sit one lor den go carpark sit. Behind is LJS. Got the glass. Then i sit on the steps there. When i stand up, these few guys laughing at me. They look at me and laugh. Guess why? Cause i sit that time can see my ass. Idiot right this kind of ppl. Make me so embarassed. Then i go sit the other side and smoke. And tok to caixiong lor. Then when time le, i go sign in.
Work work work. Jiahao msg me. Im sorry boy, i sms you like so sian cause i today too busy le. Hmm. I also........... But he damn bad, after that nv reply le. So like nvm. Today i tot j8 can close early. BUT, wadi sae arnd 11. So yeah, at 11 den i go home. Then yahhh. Then received 2 sms from caixiong, 1 miss call frm spencer. 1 unknown miss call, which is spencer's cousin. Called that bird but he didnt ans. So caixiong called me. Then pei mi tok until i reach home. He's coming to fetch me with his bike tmr. After i finish work. Hmm. A little bit scared. I nv even tok to him in real life. AHha. Reach home, on com. Then spencer called me. Aiyo. Then tok tok tok . Then Go bathe. Then come out, receive 1 sms n 1 miss call frm caixiong. Then call him back. Tok abt 10 mins den i sae i was gg to slp le. HAHA. im such a liar. Tmr stil lmuz giv him morning call. Aiyo. That pig. K la. I go do my stuffs le. See u! Will update tmr. Im so happy. =))))
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YFriday, August 03, 2007
Weixiong is such an irritating fucker.
omg the pic really look so lovely lor
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
WAHHH
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
SO CONVINCING
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i believeeeeeeeee
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
really la really belive lor
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i tink ah
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i should juz block u
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
oi
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
and get u off my life FOREVER
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
sorry sorry
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
cannot
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
GET LOST
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
oi
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
WHAT
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
sharlene
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
i belive la
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
watever
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i dunwan tok to u ANYMORE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao leh
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
IM SERIOUS AH
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
Get out of my life
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
i reallyy belive la
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
oi wat i do sia
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
U Are a sucker
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao leh wat i do only say dun belive got so serious meh
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
i say i belive liao ma
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
watever
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
really belive la
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
u are so irritating
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i cant stand u
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
SO
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wat i do sia
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
STOP IRRITATIN ME
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
when i irritated u lor.. u the 1 hu say u wan to show me the pic de leh...,. wah lao
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
U ARE THE ONE HU ASK ME TO TK U ASSHOLE
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
ANYWAY
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
IM NT GG TO TOK TO U ANYMORE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao wat have i done la...
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
ok la my fault la sorry k
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
really sorry
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
BYE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
WAHHHHH
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
IM DELETING U FRM MY MSN
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
N MY FRENSTER
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
nononoo
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
oi
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
AND DUN CALL ME ANYMORE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
i say sorry ler right
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
then wat u wan me to do leh
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
die
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
GO DIE LA
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao where got like that 1
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
U SUCK
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
GET LOST
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
suck at wat k lor?
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
U ARE AN ASSHOLE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
at least give me a reason y u wan to neglect me la
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
I HATE YOU!
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
PLSSSSSSSSSS
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
DO ME A FAVOUR
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
again
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
DUN TOK TO ME ANYMORE
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wat i've done?
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
SHUT UP AND STOP ASKING THE SAME THING OVER N OVER AGAIN
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
cause u dun even have a answer for my question
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
CB
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
IM GONNA BLK U NOW
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
okokok
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
u have
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
LAST WORDS FROM ME
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
FUCK OFF
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
I LOVE U
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
LOVE UR ASS LA
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
...
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
sharlene
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
sayang la ok
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
YUCKS
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
NO THX
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
y everytime i kanna scolding from u for no reason 1
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
den too bad
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
wah lao leh wat i done lor?
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
eh shut up can
°«ѕнåяlэиє»° One come, all come. says:
i bz
the day will never come for u to know how i feel... says:
u see u see
I swear he's the most irritatin guy on earth.
Anyway, monday meeting caixiong. He going to fetch me home with his bike! =)))
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LENON acting macho
Lenon ac ting sissy. Oh look, my art!
Movie tickets.
Nan block my face!
Sharina's abused arms.
Come on, give me a kisss.
NOOO, Dun leave meee.
Sharina n sharlene flirting in class. HAHA.
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Im in a good mood today. Hmm. Okay. Went for cmaths tutorial this morning and went thru the answers. Then after that 2 hour break we went to mac donalds to eat. Smsed Jiahao. Hmm. He said sthhh.. =))
After eat le juvone pei jiamin go see doc cause she sick. Then the rest of us went back to schoo. Went to LT there. Was half an hour early cause the teacher say we always late den better dun go late anymore. But this time, we too early! Haha. Then slack outside lor/ For half an hour. After that go prsp/ Then felt like sleeping lor. Super boring and tired. Grr. AFter that we go lab and play com. My fone want no batt le! So i ask jiahao to go online. Chat with me there. Then he said maybe coming down tmr to find me at work. Said: If i go den muz hug me hor" LOL. Crazy guy he. =/
Then he came online and i chat chat chat. Then go print notes for next week. After that, i receieved a call from Cheryl. She say caixiong want my number. So i said okay lor since so long nv tok to him le. Btw, caixiong is jamie's friend. Last time into den tok tok den nw lose contact le. Then when we go in LT, for cmaths, he smsed me. Then ask me whether i still staying at bedok, if not he can fetch me. Cause he got bike. Ahhh, sad. I told him i staying at amk now lor. Then he said if i dun mind he can come fetch me from home. HAHA. So nice.
Im hungry...
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This feeling is coming back. I dont know why. But the things he said make my stomach churn. I closed the msn window or else i could have copy and pasted it here. Yeah, so like, i guess he thinks i'm a super sensitive bitch. HA. Oh well. Maybe its all too soon. Like i said, i wont get into a relationship so soon. He said: " What's the point of being in a relationship if there's no trust?" Come, let me tell you something Jiahao. It's not that i don't want to trust guys. It's just that everytime i trust them, they just give me really disappointing results.
He also said: I'm not like your other ex lor. Okay, this sounds really really familiar. Ha. The same words over and over again. How to trust and believe? Furthermore, i only know him for a week or so? It's really hard lah. I know, it's all just attraction and infactuation. These feelings will only last for a short period of time. I've learnt my mistake. Never go into a relationship so soon. I will just learn to regret it. What for go through all those hurting experiences?
What i can say now is that i can just wait. And see what happens. Will be meeting up with jiahao again asap. Maybe the week after next. This time i can't predict what happens. Maybe, he would have already forgotten me by then. Then, i know i have not made the wrong choice by not going into this relationship. Just wait and see.
13 more days.
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YThursday, August 02, 2007
Im beginning to love thursdays! HAHA. Today vislit damn slack. We didnt do anything cause we already completed our work. (For some of us) So me, jy, juvone n john went to bookshop and got the boards.. Then already spent 1 and a half hour lor. HAHA. Then we went back class and slack slack slack. Then after that break le we all go outside eat.
After break, we went back to sch, but w/o juvone cause she meeting her friend. Hmm. So yeah, cmsk also damn slack. After that str8 away go home and slept. And i woke up like a few mins ago. Hmmmmm. I read brother's blog and he said i was gonna fall in love very soon?!? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! Uh uh, brother ur wrong. BAD BAD BAD. =P
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YWednesday, August 01, 2007
I was wrong today. I thought jiahao will pangseh me. HA. But he didnt. I wa sslping when he sms me. He say change time and all la. Sae he got 2nd prac. At first i dun believe one. But inthe end after meet him i believe lo. Hmmm. It was arnd 2 plus when i decided to slp. Cause i already forgot about meeting him. Tot he didnt wan to meet me. Then he smsed me. Say 3.30 meet at vivo. So i kanchiong go bathe and prepare and all. I was late la. HAHA. By half an hour.
Reach le i call him den go look for him den saw him. LOL. I from behind scare him. =) Then after that we go walk walk. I go in i.p zone help him find job but they only hire full timers. So sad la. AHAH. Then we go buy movie tickets. Watched ALONE. Then go out smoke. Then walk walk again then let him play my psp. He so funny lor. Make so much noise. Aiyo. HAHA.
After a while our 5.15 show going to start so we go back lor. Then in the cinema not alot of ppl. We sit right at the back. Then the show okok la. Quite scary. Actually wan act brave one but in the end i cover my face. LOL. Cannot la, too much for me. HAHA. Then after that i cold then he took off his jacket let me usee. HA. So niceee. Then after that we go eat. Then tok alot of cock. Then go outside smoke again and tok tok. We sit dwn at the stairs and took fotos. LOL.
So funny lah. He keep on make me laugh non stop. Bth him. Hmm. AFTER that abt 8.30 we left the place and took mrt. Was whacking and pinching him the whole day. Then he said: wahh, first time mit le liddat, so violent. Nxt time sure worse one lah!" LOL. Yeah jiahao, you are right baby! HAHA. :X Hmm. Overall, the day wasnt so bad, Yeah. Anyway im stuck already. In relationships. I dun wan history to repeat itself. Sorry ********. Sorry *******. I tink thats abt it. Pics will be uploaded!
p.s. He said he missed me. 
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