YTuesday, July 17, 2007
Okay, so i have given up COMPLETELY. Its over. i feel so stupid. And i meant it. I regretted. And his words like super fucked up and disappointing. I have to admit that. I thought we were still together. Cause of what actually happened. But what happened after that? He said he not sure. I dont know but i just get this really funny feeling.
I give up already. Like fuck. I should have listened to shane all along. I feel really stupid and naive and gullible. Why did i do it? Somemore, he said what fuck him for loving me bla bla bla. Eh come on ah, Whats that supposed to mean. I am like at a disadvantage. Not YOU. I've done so much and this is what i get in return. Like thanks! HA!
Seriously, i swear i'm gonan find myself another better guy lah. Someone who i can really trust and who i noe is not taking advantage of me or playing with my feelings or whatever lah. And lastly, love me instead of telling me stuffs like "fuck me for loving you" . HA. What a joke can. There is now, more hate then love. I feel damn fucked up. I dont care already man. I'm gonna enjoy myself. LAter meeting Brendan at amk inter go eat. He today pei me tok till i reach school. Then tmr going meet changlin at amk inter. We going shopping, watch movie eat ice cream!! At least i'm getting occupied.
Just now went design eat. Saw ____. HA. My frens like keep making me. Oh well. My heart did jump a little when i saw him. Somemore sit opposite him. Wahlao. Nan, Jiamin, shu juan. Watch out!! HAH. After eat le den come lab. So yah. Here i am.
To someone out there: If you dont wanna tok to me anymore, so be it. Its your fucking choice. I'm not losing out. What you have done, will never be forgotten. I won't give in anymore. Enough is enough. Take care ah. I'm so over you.
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