YThursday, July 12, 2007
I done my wds le! Left add in some text. i can do that tmr. =) Oh yeah i'm feeling like damn weird. Like sth's missing. I must get used to it! I mustttt! After putting my nick: Amazing. I'm single, once again. It's just not meant to be. So many people come talk to me. haa.
Tmr meeting jojo n jerry, friday going meet brother, Sat sun work. Nxt week wed meeting chang lin go watch movie. Go shopping go eat ice cream! Yummieeee. I just finished talking to ash. Told him everything. He told me some things too. Ahh, But i noe spencer's most prob not gonna forgive me la. So yeah, what's the point of saying so much now. It's damn impossible. Will miss ___ but, shall get used to it. The feelin will fade evantually.
Oh yeah i went to min fei's hse again today. That fucker has got fucking intentions. Cb. It's like 3 days ago he ask me go hiis hse do the wds thingy. He sae he noe, he can help me. But todae i went, he was playing his fucking DOTA. And then i ask him help me, he ask me go find google myself. Cause he nt too sure. So what does it means? It means he has got fucking bad motives. He asked me to stay till 6, which was left with 1 hr. I said no ah and left at 530. He didnt let me go. But i went out myself.
He lied on his bed. And i kept saying bye but no response den after he ask me stay till 6. It's like he's hinting me to go into his room again. Like no, cause ytd bro alrdy scolded me. I didnt dare do it a second time. Furthermore, i n spencer like talking again. Ididnt want to make the wrong move again. So i just left. I hate min fei la. He's a bloody user. Cb kia lei. I swear i'm never going his hse again. Oh well, too late. Wwhat's done cant be undone. I cant help it but keep feeling damn fucked up. Why sia. Ok, maybe its partly my fault, but i really got no intentions. Whats the point of keep saying n saying. Its over. Why do i even care so much.
I hate myself. I wish i could think b4 i do something. I WISH. I'm driven to nuts soon. I miss ___. Yet i dont. Fucking irritatin feeling. Let go, girl. Its over.. Over.. Stop thinking and get on with life. I'm so disappointed in myself, and in him. AND him. I'm not emo-ing ah. Just feeling damn bad and down. LMF is a motherfucking user. I boil when i think about it. They way he does it/ ARGHHH! THIS is NUTS LAH. slp slp slp. Dun tink le.
All i can say now is sorry. There's nothing more i can do.
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