YThursday, July 19, 2007
Congrats to sharlene. She got into deep shit cause of HIM again. It ruined my mood yesterday. Let me tell you guys what she sent.
Tot Wed you supposed 2 come back early? Mummy saw ur neck has ********, you better watch yourself b4 i throw u inside girl's home. Ask your stupid bf to come see me. All guys are so damn good 4 nth. You better dun get conned by them.
Next msg:
You better behave if u still wanna stay here. This is not a free hotel and hv respect 4 me, ur sis n the gods at home. Ask ur stupid bf 2 come see me.i wanna see what kind of conman he is
Yah. Out of the blue she sent me that msg. I'm like wtf!?! I was really enjoying myself yesterday until she sent me that fuckin msg. AND FYI I DONT HAV A FUCKING BOYFRIEND. USED TO. Not ANYMORE. So like stop accusing me lah mother. I dont wanna tell u stuffs cause u are so unreasonable at times. How am i gonna show u my "boyfriend". I got it like accidentally? I didnt want it. AND now i got into trouble. I went home and she didnt talk to me. AT ALL. Didnt even let me use the fucking com. I waited from 10 to 1. She kept the com in her room. I was pissed and tired so i went to sleep. So unreasonable. Fuck. It's always like that. I dont wanna tell him anything anymore cause i feel that he wun be interested at all and cant do anything at all. Anyway all these shit i will handle it myself. Damn irritated. All alone already. By my own.
Okay back to talk about ytd. I woke up at 1 and changlin said he will reach at 2. Then i got ready quickly and reached the mrt control at 1.50 pm. Had a quick smoke and sms him. He say he willw ill tell me. I waited n waited and guess what time he came? Erm, 2.40? HA. I got so pissed off i pretend i dunno him. Then he keep on talking n talking. And i was there nagging and nagging. Then we took mrt to somerset and go buy movie tickets. We watched Transformers. Inside cinema so cold lah. So........ Hmm. Then during movie we both urgent to go toilet and den so embarassing must stand up and block people. Ha. After that continued watching.
Oh yah before the movie we went to eat. He sae he felt like eating kinokuniya? LOL? It sells books. He want to eat books! Lol silly boy. Then we ate yoshinoya. Then he keep on making me irritated. Ask him dun do sth, he ping ming want to go do. Aiyo. So stubborn. Then i take alot of fotos of him. HAHA. He got so pissed off. I wun upload it cause he too paiseh. So like yah. Then after movie i ran out to go toilet. Freaking urgent. Then after that we shop shop and smoke smoke den time passed very fast. Then when at topshop that time he choose his stuffs very long and that;s when i received mummy's sms. Like cb. Spoil my mood. Then changlin ask me what happened and all la. So i sae i very "fan". Then he ask me: Wan bao bao anot? Only got this once lei. LOL? So.... Haha. Okay. Then he buy his stuffs le we walked to fareast. i go find liliang. Wahlao his work freakign slack. So shiok. After i quit school i also want go work with him le. =)
Okay. So we walked there den chit chat awhile den we left. Changlin and i waited for our own buses. While waiting. He asked me to bao da him cause he treat me watch movie bla bla bla. Then he like keep hinting sth. Haha. So like yah. He's a greedy boy laaaa. i feel so weird. I dunno how to face him in shop le. LOL. Before i board the bus, sth sth. Then in the bus he sms me and yah. Stupid lah he. Talk nonsense. Aiyo. I must self-control le. I hate my life right now laa. Family, sch, work. Bla bla bla. I feel that noone cares la. Except for a few. So like. Why bother? I must get used to it already.
Work life is getting nearer for me. Study life is drifting apart. Soon. I', sick of this life i have. I want to do sth different. Sth different that noone expects. Oh well. I seriously can't care anymore. Let my mother call the police for all i care. It always the same exucses she has. Watever la mother. You not sian of repeating the same stuffs, i am damn sian of hearing the same stuffs. The truth is: I HATE GOING HOME EVERYDAY. swallowing those atitude of yours, pretending i dont even exist. I hate my life. Those irritating guys around me. Those insults, those bla bla bla. I must change. Change change change.
I am damn affected by everything now. I'm not talking to anyone online unless they talk to me alrready/. Im not gonna start any converstations already. Sometimes, just have to tink la. I dunwan to be so irritating, so loud, so rough, so bla bla bla. I know how it feels la. Yeah. So when i'm not in school or whatever, i dont know when it'll be, i hope i'm able to give people a much better impression of me. I realised. I'm not going into any relationship yet. Until i'm ready. Now it's just not the right time. I won't use substitude anyone for him. I'll wait till everything's over and then, i'll continue with my life.
Whatever it is. I just want my life to like fastforward. For about 4 years? So like i can have my own free space, my freedom, my everything. I hate it laa. Anyway changlin, i enjoyed myself v much ytd. (except for the waiting part) HAHA. Okay lah. I tink i've blogged enough . Wah, it's long so yeah. Happy reading.
Sh a R le Ne__* told you a secret at