YTuesday, May 22, 2007
I went to see darling again. Super saddening. Everyday see him like that. I skipped lecture today cause i missed him so much. Went to hospital and Gita caught up with us. Darling is seriously thinking about cutting botak. He feels that i wont want him anymore. But i've already promised him i'll be with him for life. Yes darling? Remember? I'm going to be your wife and you're gonna be my husband. I dont care! So yeah. I'm willing to wait for you to recover and after which we can seriously go out to have fun. Celebrate your recovery. I don't care what others will think of us but i still wanna be with you.
I know darling is gonna look weird if he shaves his hair but i'll get used to it. I won't leave him cause of such stupid reasons. I love him. Yes, i don't want his appearance. I want his personality. It's him that i love. Not his stupid face. =) Anywya went back to school and was like late. After school, went back to hospital. It was said that he might take a LONG time to recover. Approximately a year. Man, that's so long. Darling is scared i will leave him if he cuts botak. I won't and i mean it. Next, he's scared cause he wont be able to use his left hand in future. Come on baby, it takes time. It WILL recover! I'll pray and pray and pray for you okay?
I've decided to quit my fucking job. I need to go see my darling after school everyday. I don't care about money. I just care about him him him him and him. I'm like fucking stress now. I got so many things to think of. My proposal, my tests, my projects, work, darling, money problems. Oh god. I feel like breaking down again. Oh yeah i didnt eat for 3 days. I'm so happy as i lost 1 kg. Going to continue till i faint. But dont worry, i'll survive.
How i wish it was all a dream. How i wish i was the one in hospital. It hurts to see him suffer. If not now i'll be still talking to my darling on the fone, going to bishan park SLACK. Haiz, its such a pity. I miss thoese times so much. I miss him. I miss everything. God. I better start on my work now and stop blogging. Sorry, no pics for today. See ya.
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